Get Ready With God

Ep.209: Breaking the Struggle Habit

Fri, 10 Apr 2026 04:00:00 -0600

When it rain it pours but is it still raining?

Ep. 208: Pretend Confidence

Thu, 09 Apr 2026 04:00:00 -0600

Let's talk about confidence and why it matters and how to get it. Shall we? Sure! Sounds fun!

Ep. 207: We Are Annoying to Each Other But Not to God

Wed, 08 Apr 2026 04:00:00 -0600

People learn when they are ready to learn, not when you're ready to teach. Can our patience handle that? For ourselves?

Ep. 206: It's Coronation Day! (book release day)

Tue, 07 Apr 2026 04:00:00 -0600

Indulge me in a moment of reflection how we got here?

Ep. 205: You Don't Need Permission (But Permission Sure Is Nice)

Mon, 06 Apr 2026 04:00:00 -0600

I've been noticing a pattern in myself: I justify everything. My career, my faith, my grief, my ambition. I caught myself telling my four-year-old "I have to go to work" and stopped cold because that's not the message I want to send her.

Also my book comes out tomorrow. No big deal. (Big deal.)

Ep. 204: Mary Knew on Easter Too

Fri, 03 Apr 2026 04:00:00 -0600

We talk about Mary at Christmas. We debate whether she knew. But nobody's asking that question at Easter. And I think we should. Because she did know, and knowing didn't spare her from a single second of it. This episode is about Mary's sacrifice in the part of the story we skip over, what women carry, and why I think that scripture about her keeping these things in her heart might be the most relatable thing in the whole Bible.

Ep. 203: The Version of God That Made Me Leave

Thu, 02 Apr 2026 04:00:00 -0600

For a while, not believing felt safer than believing. Because the God I'd been shown brought shame and fear, not hope. And if that's the God you've been handed too, I get it. I really do. This episode is about what it took to separate the God other people gave me from the one I actually found, and why I think your own firsthand experience with the Divine is the only one worth trusting.

Ep. 202: Chase the Light Instead

Wed, 01 Apr 2026 04:00:00 -0600

Sunday's church lesson wrecked me in the best way. A photographer in my neighborhood said: stop chasing the perfect photo and chase the light instead. We're talking about what that means for faith, for life, for the exhausting gap between what we wanted and what actually is, and why joy is still the most rebellious thing we can choose.

Ep. 201: The Danger of Detaching Too Far

Tue, 31 Mar 2026 04:00:00 -0600

Detaching myself from the results of what I create is what enables me to keep going, but last week I learned that maybe I have overcorrected? Let's talk about the dance of staying grounded without dismissing the light.

Ep. 200: GRWG LIVE with Julie Taylor and Lisa Valentine Clark! Book Launch!

Mon, 30 Mar 2026 04:00:00 -0600

This is a LIVE recording of the It's More Fun to Believe Book launch event interview! We don't hold back and we didn't edit so buckle up and enjoy! And get your book here!

Ep. 199: To Be Known

Fri, 06 Mar 2026 04:21:00 -0700

After a trip to the Brontë sisters’ village in England, I started thinking about how rare it is to feel truly understood. What if part of faith is trusting that God already knows us completely. Our strange parts, our creative parts, even the parts we try to hide. Today we are exploring what changes when you let yourself believe that.

Ep. 198: Gimme Gimme More

Thu, 05 Mar 2026 04:00:00 -0700

What if the answer to your prayer isn’t rescue… but strength? Today I’m wrestling with wanting, waiting, and why God so rarely gives me the miracle in the package I asked for. Maybe deliverance isn’t being saved from it. Maybe it’s being able to endure it. Love you. Bye.

Ep. 197: Respectfully, I Don't Want To

Wed, 04 Mar 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Sometimes the life I want requires things I don’t. The writing career means promotion. The faith I crave means showing up when I’d rather stay home. Today I’m talking about fear, resistance, and why the habits that feel disconnected might actually be the very things shaping us. Not every Sunday feels spiritual. Not every effort feels worth it. But maybe faith is built in the pattern, not the proof. Love you. Bye.

Ep. 196: Expanding Instead of Fixating

Tue, 03 Mar 2026 04:00:00 -0700

What's your favorite part? I found myself reflecting on what actually feels most fulfilling. This episode is about motherhood, faith, identity, and why sometimes expanding your life instead of fixating on one hard thing is what finally brings peace.

Ep. 195: A Rare Episode About Marriage

Mon, 02 Mar 2026 04:00:00 -0700

After Valentine’s Day, I found myself reflecting on enduring love, the kind that survives grief, growth, and the unglamorous realities of real life. From my marriage to the love of God, this episode is about what it means for love to “bear all things” and why divine love can hold every part of us, even the complicated ones.

Ep. 194: The Temptation to be Needed

Fri, 27 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

It feels good to be needed! But things get dangerous when our worth is too closely tied to that. Let's talk it out.

Ep. 193: You Can't Trick God

Thu, 26 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

But that doesn't stop me from trying! This episode was pre-recorded and because the perfect evidence to the thesis presented because now I am genuinely in a place of gratitude for the things I was battling when I recorded. Look at that! it works!

Ep. 192: Creating Community When You Don’t Feel Qualified

Wed, 25 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Today’s episode is a little niche and a lot honest. I’m sharing what’s actually working for me as a Relief Society president — pink soda coolers, “pods” instead of traditional ministering, drive-through interviews, and creating access points for women who don’t always feel like they fit. I’m not an expert. I feel inadequate constantly. But I believe deeply in women, in service, and in building something that feels like relief. If you’re in leadership (or just trying to love people better), this one’s for you.

Ep. 191: Not To Be Dramatic But My Soul is Stirring

Tue, 24 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Sharing a pattern in my life I have never talked about for and how to trust divine will and ourselves in following it.

Ep. 190: Try to Change the Day, Not the World.

Mon, 23 Feb 2026 01:15:28 -0700

Today is a quick call to action! So often we worry about how to change the world, but I think that begins with changing the day. Try this!

Ep. 189: Maybe It’s Not a Parenting Fail

Fri, 20 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Today I’m gently pushing back on the idea that kids who stay in your faith = success, and kids who leave = failure. As a former wanderer (and current parent of five in the thick of it), I see it differently. What if raising kids who think for themselves, question, and still feel deeply loved is actually the win? Let’s zoom out and rethink what faith “success” really means.

Ep. 188: Respectfully, I Don't Care About Eternity Today

Thu, 19 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

This week I’m asking myself a simple but uncomfortable question: How has my faith actually changed my life? Not in eternity. Not in theory. Today. After a stretch where religion has felt draining and honestly a little pointless, I was reminded why I still choose it. Not because I’m right. Not because I’m certain. But because it makes me better right now. Let’s talk about finding your own reason — and claiming it.

Ep. 187: What If You Just Called Taylor Up?

Wed, 18 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

If you are on a journey to discover your purpose this episode is for you! In this episode I spiral (lovingly) about purpose, platforms, and why the small, awkward, showing-up-for-one-person stuff might matter more than the big shiny dreams we keep chasing. Come process with me.

Ep. 186: Letting My Guard Down

Tue, 17 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

We NEED our differences! Let's talk about how I've been humbled and invited to form new beliefs as I trust that our differences are divine and it can be safe to lean in.

Ep. 185: So What If It’s Bad?

Fri, 13 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Today I’m talking about why I hate being emotionally managed, why “you’re not ugly, you just need…” makes me want to throw my phone, and why I think faith is strongest when we stop pretending everything is fine. What if we just admit when things are bad? To me, the real miracle isn’t convincing ourselves it’s not. The miracle is being okay even when it is.

Ep. 184: A Silent Sermon

Thu, 12 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Today I’m sharing a moment with my daughter that stopped me in my tracks and sent me down a bigger question. What is teaching us without ever speaking? We talk about the sky, learning through life, detours we don’t regret, and the quiet ways divinity shapes us when there are no words at all. This is an invitation to notice what has been teaching you and to claim it as real guidance.

Ep. 183: Modern Discipleship for Normal People

Wed, 11 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

What does it actually look like to follow Christ in modern, everyday life? Not on a stage or in a miracle story, but on a Tuesday in 2026. Today I reflect on faith as a series of small, ordinary choices, why discipleship looks different for everyone, and how asking “who can I serve today” has quietly changed the way I live and love.

Ep. 182: Don't Quote Me On That

Tue, 10 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Today I am talking honestly about the faith based creator space and why it makes me nervous. I share my concerns about emotional manipulation, blurred lines of authority, and the temptation to let other people speak for God in our lives. This episode is my reminder to you and to myself that what God says to you is personal, direct, and not meant to be filtered through influencers, podcasts, or platforms.

Ep. 181: Divine Currency

Mon, 09 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Today I am talking about art, Noah Kahan, Moana, and why I think faith works a lot more like creativity than certainty. I share why not knowing feels safer to me than claiming absolute truth, how art becomes a channel for divine connection, and why your interpretation is not only allowed but kind of the whole point. This is an invitation to loosen your grip, trust your own experience with God, and maybe create something without needing everyone to agree on what it means.

Ep. 180: Take the Fear Out of Faith

Fri, 06 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Today I’m reflecting on faith, fear, and why I no longer believe God uses shame or terror to keep us close. Inspired by a lyric that hit me right in the soul, I’m talking about growing up afraid of getting it wrong, what changed for me, and why I want faith to feel safe, spacious, and even a little fun. An invitation to believe without losing sleep about your soul.

Ep. 179: IDK Just Keep Going?

Thu, 05 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Today I’m reflecting on a season where everything feels like too much even though so much of it is good. How overwhelm can make blessings feel like burdens and how shifting the story we tell might help us notice the divine gifts right in front of us. An invitation to gratitude, stewardship, and not missing what God is doing in this moment.

Ep. 178: Choose The Wrong

Wed, 04 Feb 2026 04:03:00 -0700

What if there isn’t one right choice? A reflection on pressure, perfection, and learning to trust God without being terrified of getting it wrong.

Ep. 177: I'm Not the Same As I Was

Tue, 03 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

I’m sharing some thoughts on changing, letting go of old versions of ourselves, and trusting God to guide us through every season of becoming.

Ep. 176: Miracle to Mundane

Mon, 02 Feb 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Lately I’ve been thinking about how often miracles slowly become mundane. In this episode, I reflect on the things in my life that once felt impossible and now feel normal, and how naming them again can help us see divinity in our everyday lives.

Ep. 175: Am I ok?

Fri, 30 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Talking about the deepest driving question I think hides behind all our other questions. And the answer to that question. All in one episode. Talk about value!

Ep. 174: Make Wayyyyy For...Receiving. And Prince Ali.

Thu, 29 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Calling all insanely productive, high-achievers! Can we make some space to receive rather than just produce? I am not telling you to slow down but I do think we need to stay agile in finding space for some mental stillness.

Ep. 173: Beyond the buzz word: What is belonging reallllly?

Wed, 28 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Belonging is a buzz word we hear all over the place but what is it actually? How do we create it? Is it created? Or simply found? Let's go deep baby. TWSS.

Ep. 172: Let’s Talk About Scrupulosity (with Laken & Claire)

Tue, 27 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

An honest conversation about scrupulosity, OCD, faith, and mental health with Laken Lambson and Claire Quigley. Laken and Claire have a new single that just dropped and I can't stop listening! Go! Listen! https://open.spotify.com/track/7qUkwkXVFnMvsDvs6FoY3T?si=c7182209a9d144b1

Ep. 171: Choosing What to Keep

Mon, 26 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

You don’t have to believe everything you were taught or throw it all away. Today we’re talking about keeping what’s good, releasing what isn’t, and finding peace in the gray.

Ep. 170: Why Christianity Didn’t Work for Me (Then)

Fri, 23 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

This is a reflection on the season when faith felt like harm instead of help. I share why I stepped away, what I couldn’t hold at the time, and how leaving was less about rejection and more about survival.

Ep. 169: It Matters That It’s You

Thu, 22 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

I was deeply moved listening to my niece speak not because of charisma or polish, but because of who she is to me. It reminded me that influence isn’t about having the perfect words or a powerful delivery. It’s about relationship. In this episode, I talk about quiet honesty, soft courage, and the way our words land differently simply because we’re the ones saying them. You don’t need a mic drop moment. You just need to show up honestly for the people who love you.

Ep. 168: Find Your Conviction

Wed, 21 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

It is easy to focus on all the places our faith is lacking, but sometimes that makes us miss the places our faith is strong. Let's look for it in the places we might not expect.

Ep. 167: Stop Telling Me to Simplify

Tue, 20 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

A devotional for anyone feeling overwhelmed, stretched thin, and still called to more. This episode is about alignment, effort, and trusting that when something truly matters, God expands our ability to carry it.

Ep. 166: Feet on the Ground, Head in the Clouds

Fri, 16 Jan 2026 04:01:00 -0700

How do we stay realistic without becoming cynical, and hopeful without losing our grip on reality? Today I’m sharing the mantra that’s helping me live with faith, honesty, and a little holy delusion in 2026.

Also preorder the book here!: https://www.amazon.com/Its-More-Fun-Believe-Complicated/dp/163993474X

Ep. 165: When Your Faith (or lack thereof) Disappoints the People You Love

Thu, 15 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

In this episode, I talk about what it feels like to live with the quiet weight of disappointing people you love. I explore how faith transitions, personal growth, and listening to your inner guidance can create real tension in families, marriages, and communities. I share why being misunderstood has shaped my relationship with God, how rejection can push us toward healthier sources of worth, and why turning to divinity instead of away from it has been both the hardest and most grounding choice of my life. This episode is for anyone walking a lonely path, trying to stay faithful to what feels true while grieving the loss of approval, certainty, or belonging along the way.

Ep. 164: Faith as Fiction

Wed, 14 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

In this episode, I talk about a belief that surprised even my closest friends. What if faith doesn’t have to be literal to be meaningful? I explore why I’ve found peace in viewing scripture the way I view fiction, not as something disposable or false, but as a powerful way truth is communicated, held, and lived. If you’ve ever felt destabilized by questions about what’s real, what’s true, or what you’re allowed to believe, this episode is an invitation to loosen your grip on certainty without letting go of faith. This is for anyone trying to stay open, stay hopeful, and keep believing without needing everything to make perfect sense.

Ep. 163: Blessed Are the Try Hards

Tue, 13 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

If all you do is win and you do it effortlessly you can skip this one. For everyone else? Let's talk about the sanctity in effort and how to sustain it when despite it all, you can't get the win.

Ep. 162: Stop Outsourcing Your Intuition

Mon, 12 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

What happens when religion teaches us to outsource our intuition, and then we leave it behind? In this episode, I talk about faith, dissonance, internet authority, and why learning to trust God directly has changed everything for me. The goal isn’t to follow me. It’s to bring intuition back in-house and let God guide you personally.

Ep. 161: Cynicism Isn’t Wisdom

Fri, 09 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Be brave enough to hope!

I read a line in a novel that stopped me cold: “Cynics are just romantics too afraid to hope.”
This episode is a plea to drop the armor, dream again, trust again, and believe that you are resilient enough to take the hit. It’s more fun to believe. Let’s be brave enough to hope together.

Ep. 160: The Reddit Thread (about me) I Wasn't Supposed to Talk About

Thu, 08 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

a conversation about finding a reddit thread about me, the slippery slope of where we give our attention, and why i'm inviting us all (including myself) to consume more wisely. no shame, just an honest look at the habits we've normalized and what could change if we redirected that energy. plus: why disassociating on tiktok during grief made sense but maybe doesn't anymore.

Ep. 159: Transcendence

Wed, 07 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

What if the ticket to the next thing is actually being present in the current thing?

Ep. 158: Dark and Dirty Hope

Tue, 06 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Have you ever felt like hope is a little naive? Like maybe it requires you to ignore reality and focus on rainbows and butterflies? Let's talk about going beyond thoughts and prayers to use hope to actually change the world. Dramatic? Always!

Ep. 157: A Faith Bigger Than Religion

Mon, 05 Jan 2026 04:00:00 -0700

Happy New Year! Let's kick things off with a little chat about how to step beyond black and white and find glory in the gray.

Ep. 156: Mary Knew

Fri, 19 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

This podcast is all about the power in not knowing, but if there is one "knowing" I will defend to my death, it's Mary's. Sharing a poem, some tears (sorrrrry), and why I feel like all of this matters so much.

Ep. 155: Feeling Disconnected?

Thu, 18 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Do you blame yourself when you feel distant from divinity? Do you feel like if you were better at praying or more righteous thennnnnn God will show up? Do you think everything is your fault? This one is for you!

Ep. 154: The Difference Between God and Santa

Wed, 17 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

God vs. Santa actually perfectly explains the number one reason I returned to faith.

Ep. 153: Lean In Baby

Tue, 16 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Overwhelmed? Want to hide in a cave? What if you were made for this though? Idk sounds fun? Let's try it?

Ep. 152: Like It's 1999

Mon, 15 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Even faith can't escape the weight of decision fatigue. Is there a solution? Maybe!

Ep. 151: The Freedom of a Flexible Faith

Fri, 12 Dec 2025 04:06:00 -0700

Constant doubters this one is for us! We get perks! Let's talk about them!

Ep.150: Performative Poison

Thu, 11 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

If I was in the tax bracket where you have a pantry the sized of a kitchen so that your actual kitchen is just a show kitchen I would probably embrace it fully. But I am not. So call me a hater and let's talk about the value of a cluttered kitchen.

Ep.149: Monetizing Jesus

Wed, 10 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

What's the difference between self-help and spirituality? When is it ok to monetize faith? Hard hitting questions only baby.

Ep. 148: When Fun Isn't Easy

Tue, 09 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

It might be more fun to believe but it definitely isn't easier to believe. Are fun and easy mutually exclusive? Lock in and let's go.

Ep. 147: Good News: You Can Do This. Bad News: You Have to Do This.

Mon, 08 Dec 2025 04:16:00 -0700

Recovering people-pleasers, save-the-world types, and anyone who struggles with others’ suffering—this one’s for you. I reflect on how God shows up for us in hard times, trusts our resilience, and believes in our ability to overcome. A lesson in compassion, empowerment, and letting go of the need to fix everything.

Ep. 146: Protein Propoganda

Fri, 05 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Finally getting something heavy off my chest, and we talk about faith too.

Ep. 145: Obedience for the Rebel 101

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

For all the rebellious souls out there: what if obedience isn’t about fear, punishment, or blind following? On my birthday, I’m unpacking obedience, sacrifice, and how a loving God guides us — even when we wander.

Ep. 144: The Myth of Reciprocity

Wed, 03 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Can we talk about motherhood, how your kids owe you nothing, and what that teaches us about God? Come on, it will be fun!

Ep. 143: How To Not Be A Self-Centered Jerk

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Good things will happen, bad things will happen, and all of it will happen whether you believe in God or not. But giving divine recognition has some serious benefits. Let's talk about it.

Ep. 142: It Was Never Mine

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Buzz word of the day? Abundance! And how divinity plays into it.

Ep. 141: She's Got Potential

Wed, 26 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

What does God see?

Ep. 140: Show Yourself

Tue, 25 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

What if we told the truth? The whole truth? And what if we shared it with God?

Ep. 139: Puke On a Plane and The Purpose of Life

Mon, 24 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

I figured out the purpose of life! Literally!

Ep. 138: The Pep Talk Nobody Asked For

Fri, 21 Nov 2025 05:49:45 -0700

Vent session turned pep talk about the holiday season and the stress that it can bring. Can we riiiiiise above it?

Ep. 137: Is It Worth It?

Thu, 20 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

How do you decide if an effort or sacrifice is worth it? Let's break it down.

Ep. 136: You Have to Take the Walk

Wed, 19 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Yesterday I wanted connection with God but didn’t want to move. And that tension cracked something open for me. This episode explores the effort it takes to feel God, the seasons when He meets us anyway, and the gentle accountability of choosing to show up.

Ep. 135: Failure Needs New Marketing

Tue, 18 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

If it's ok to fail why are we always trying to spin the narrative to make failures seem less faily?

Ep. 134: It's A Lot

Mon, 17 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

I’ve been convinced something in my life must be “wrong” because I’m living at a pace I swore I’d never return to. But God keeps telling me to keep going—so I’m unpacking the difference between hustle for validation and hustle with divine purpose.

Ep. 133: Hope Hurts

Fri, 14 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Losing hope has been the most painful experience in my life. How do we rebuild? How do we find the courage? Why does it matter? This one is for Simon.

Ep. 132: Can a Church Be True?

Thu, 13 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Don't be spooked, let's talk about a path through the dissonance.

Ep. 131: In Defense of Extra

Wed, 12 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

This one goes out to everyone who has been accused of being too much.

Ep. 130: Change the Day

Tue, 11 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

You don’t have to overhaul your life to change it. Let's talk about the quiet power of small daily rituals, the beauty of noticing others, and the divine potential hidden in ordinary moments.

Ep. 129: Atrophy

Mon, 10 Nov 2025 04:03:00 -0700

All things can't be trending upwards all at once but man wouldn't that be nice? Let's talk about how to make peace with atrophy, room for growth, and the capacity to support it all.

Ep. 128: Changing Bodies Changing Hearts lol?

Fri, 07 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

The one where body image issues and constantly doubting faith cross paths.

Ep. 127: For When Church Feels Pointless

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

If you’ve ever left church wondering why you even went, this episode’s for you. Let's unpack what worship really means, why service is still sacred, and how to find peace in the imperfection of community.

Ep. 126: Science Doesn’t Disprove God

Wed, 05 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Maybe it’s science. Maybe it’s God. Maybe it’s both. This episode is about the choice to call the good in your life “divine,” and how that one choice changes everything.

Ep. 125: Look Again

Tue, 04 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

It’s easy to fixate on the people who didn’t come through. Or the parts of faith that feel shaky. But what if you looked again? This episode is about seeing the support, the strength, and the small bits of belief that have been there all along.

Ep. 124: Your Personal Apocalypse

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0700

Faith can feel apocalyptic. Like the world you knew is over. But maybe that’s not destruction — maybe that’s revelation. In this episode, I’m talking about the word that’s changed how I see every unraveling.

Ep.123: Counterfeit Faith

Fri, 31 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

When something looks like light but feels a little off — how to trust your gut and know what’s real between you and God.

Ep. 122: The Waves and Wind Still Know

Thu, 30 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Need some stillness? Let's find it together.

Ep. 121: Stay Humble

Wed, 29 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I've always wanted to be hot, rich, and popular, but luckily God protected me from my own ego. It's a perk of faith! Let's talk about it!

Ep. 120: Born to Be a Hater, Forced to Be a Believer

Tue, 28 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Let's talk about finding a safe place to tell the truth about the dark doubts in our heads, and how to become that place for others.

Ep. 119: Rewrite the Narrative

Mon, 27 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Let’s be honest: sometimes negativity is just easier. But what if being joyful is actually the bravest story we can tell?

Ep. 118: Less Forever More Instant Gratification

Fri, 24 Oct 2025 04:04:00 -0600

Stay in the day baby! Lower the stakes! You just gotta believe today.

Ep. 117: Left On Read

Thu, 23 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Joy ghosted me? What if joy isn’t what it used to be? In this episode, I talk about how grief reshapes our capacity for joy, why happiness can’t replace it, and how service might just be the doorway back to light.

Ep. 116: Waiting on Post Malone

Wed, 22 Oct 2025 04:06:00 -0600

I waited four hours in the cold rain to see Post Malone, and he never came. But somewhere between the hail, the parking lot pee break, and the collective disappointment, I relearned what hope feels like — and why it’s still worth it, even when it ends in heartbreak.

Ep. 115: God Does Not Use Shame. Full Stop.

Tue, 21 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Progress is uncomfortable. But God sits in that discomfort with us—never shaming, always encouraging. Shame is not a Godly emotion.

Ep. 114: Men Can Have the Church

Mon, 20 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Maybe my most vulnerable episode so far, but I want to talk about why your personal relationship with divinity is so vital.

Ep. 113: Guilty As Sin?

Fri, 17 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Guilt can guide us but more often has been used to manipulate us into serving someone else's agenda. Hot take? Let's talk it out.

Ep. 112: You Had to Be There

Thu, 16 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Some things can’t be captured — they can only be experienced. Let’s talk about the kind of divinity that demands our full presence.

Ep. 111: Divine Progression

Wed, 15 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

The earth doesn’t fight its seasons, and maybe we don’t have to either. Let’s talk about change, trust, and the quiet divinity of letting things unfold.

Ep. 110: Maybe You Are Not The Problem

Tue, 14 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Accountability is great. Internalizing every problem and letting shame build? Less great. Let's chat about it.

Ep. 109: God Knows It’s Not OK

Mon, 13 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Maybe God’s silence isn’t absence. Maybe it’s acknowledgment. A quiet way of saying, “I know. It’s not okay. But I’m still here.”

Ep. 108: Denying Divinity 101

Fri, 10 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Trusting your worth will help you see more divinity in every day because baby you ARE the divinity in every day!

Ep. 107: What Do You Want Me To Do With This?

Thu, 09 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Does all suffering have meaning? Have God abandoned you? Just a typical round up of light and easy questions!

Ep. 106: All Consuming Darkness

Wed, 08 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Dark souls unite! Rebellious souls unite! We ride at dawn! But this time let's try running toward faith.

Ep. 105: I Get Jealous When People Leave God

Tue, 07 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Most of us tell ourselves we “don’t want” the hard stuff. But what if you actually do? Here’s how reframing your choices changes everything.

Ep. 104: Is God On Trial?

Mon, 06 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Faith built on “prove it” moments is exhausting. In this episode, we talk about taking God—and yourself—off trial.

Ep. 103: The Cure For Mom Guilt and Also Should You Leave Religion?

Fri, 03 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Should you quit your job? Should you get a job? Should you believe in God? Should you leave religion? All the answers are in this one episode! That's a promise!

Ep. 102: Empowered but Exhausted?

Thu, 02 Oct 2025 04:04:00 -0600

I can buy myself flowers. I can choose faith. But wouldn’t it be nice if I didn’t always have to? This one’s about tiredness, transparency, and still choosing anyway.

Ep. 101: Should You Unfollow Everyone You Know on Social Media?

Wed, 01 Oct 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Lonely? It isn't just you! n this episode, I explore why real connection beats scrolling, why “it’s hard to hate people close up” matters, and how investing in personal relationships can change everything.

Ep. 100: Insecurities Are Out, Inspiration Is In

Tue, 30 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I went to Scotland, saw dolphins, got insecure, checked my period tracker, and came home changed. Here are the two things I’m holding onto after 100 episodes: be inspired, not threatened — and stay connected to your Source.

Ep. 99: You're A Human First

Mon, 29 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

You’re a human first — focus on the base of your spiritual pyramid and the rest gets easier.

Ep. 98: The Courage to Doubt

Fri, 26 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Most of the time, I don’t know. I don’t feel certain, I don’t get the clear sign, and I don’t always feel guided. But I act anyway. In this episode, I share why I think believing without knowing is one of the bravest things we can do—and why our doubts don’t make us less, they actually make us braver.

Ep. 97: Don't Sideline Yourself

Thu, 25 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Anxiety, grief, and imperfection can make us avoid God — as if we need to “fix” ourselves before we pray. This episode is a small, fierce reminder that God doesn’t wait for perfect people; God meets us in the messy process. Try one new reframe today: your shortcoming is an invitation.

Ep. 96: When You're Not Saved From It

Wed, 24 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

What if God’s rescue doesn’t look like an exit, but like endurance? This episode explores how we can keep going, find purpose in the struggle, and see divinity even when the hard thing doesn’t go away.

Ep. 95: Are You Afraid of God?

Tue, 23 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Raised to fear God, I learned to avoid God. Now I’m learning a different way: God as path through consequences—not the punisher. Let’s talk about fear, accountability, and how honesty heals.

Ep. 94: Perks of a Broken Spirit

Mon, 22 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I left for a work trip with no clean underwear. It all worked out — and it taught me how grief, wonder, and faith can shift the way we live in the gray.

EP. 93: It Actually Has Been Worse

Fri, 19 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

We’re quick to declare “it’s never been worse.” Maybe not. This episode is about validating the heaviness, refusing fatalism, and turning grief and pain into something that heals.

Ep. 92: Monetized Community

Thu, 18 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

We’ve monetized loneliness and packaged purpose for clicks. Today I’m yelling (gently) about returning to your source—before you sign up for another course that sells your identity back to you.

Ep. 91: Disrupt the Pattern

Wed, 17 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Jealous, anxious, and stuck in the same negative loop? Today I’m confessing how I get triggered, how I physically disrupt my brain (peach shakes are involved), and why replacing habits beats shaming yourself.

Ep. 90: Mrs. Potts Was My Mother

Tue, 16 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Not every hardship has a bright side right away. But sometimes, down the line, it becomes the thing that teaches you who you are. Let’s talk about that strange, slow alchemy.

Ep. 89: Don't Make It Weird

Mon, 15 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Sometimes you’ll feel a random nudge to show up for someone you barely know. Do it. This episode is about following those weird nudges, refusing the savior complex, and trusting that if we each show up where we’re called, the world gets held.

Ep. 88: Blessed?

Fri, 12 Sep 2025 04:01:00 -0600

If blessings mean getting everything you want, you’ll always be disappointed. Here’s how I’m learning to see blessings as resilience, strength, and love anyway.

Ep. 87: How to Pray When You Don’t Know How to Pray

Thu, 11 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Does prayer work? Who knows. But I do know this: it’s more fun to believe, and it has carried me through. Here’s how I think about prayer now.

Ep. 86: God Gets It

Wed, 10 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Feeling alone? Same. This week I realized that even when nobody else gets it—God does. Let’s talk about what changes when you really believe that.

Ep. 85: Caffeine, Jorts, and Free Will

Tue, 09 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Sometimes the most spiritual thing I can say is this: gas station soda is better. Also—victimhood will keep you trapped, accountability will set you free, and the choice is yours.

Ep. 84: Does Everything Have to Mean Something?

Mon, 08 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Hymns I don’t like, Eminem in the car, bleeding through church clothes, and guacamole—what do they all have in common? A surprising reminder that peace is allowed to be simple.

Ep. 83: Skeptical, Cynical, and Somehow Still Here

Fri, 05 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Pushing passed cynicism to connection.

Ep. 82: When Someone You Love Leaves (or Stays in) Faith

Thu, 04 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

How do you support someone going through a faith crisis without pushing, panicking, or preaching? Let’s talk about love, worth, and trust.

Ep. 81: Stoplight Sermon

Wed, 03 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Sometimes God’s lesson comes from a sermon. Sometimes it’s from a stranger with a recorder at a stoplight.

Ep. 80: Baptized at Chili's

Tue, 02 Sep 2025 04:00:00 -0600

If you’ve ever worried God was mad at you, this one’s for you.

Ep. 79: I Wish We Could Quit But We Can't

Fri, 29 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Feeling stuck? Me too. But here’s what I’m learning: the only way through is to keep trying.

Ep. 78: Validation Please

Thu, 28 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

We’ve been told that needing validation is a weakness—but what if it’s actually a basic human need? Let’s talk about where to find it, how to ask for it, and why starting with God changes everything.

Ep. 77: Reprogramming Shame Out of Faith

Wed, 27 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Today I’m talking about what I will and won’t pick up—and I’ve decided two things are never from God: frantic energy and shame. Urgency? Sometimes. Remorse? Sure. But panic and shame? Never. Let’s talk about how to get clear on what energy comes from divinity, and how to refuse the things that only tear us down.

Ep. 76: Let's-Go-Defense

Tue, 26 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

What would you choose if you didn’t have to convince anyone it was the right choice? Today I’m sharing my journey of letting go of proving, defending, and performing—and what faith looks like when you stop trying to make it make sense to everyone else.

Ep. 75: Transitions Take Energy

Mon, 25 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Fall feels like one long transition—back to school, back to schedules, back to everything. And transitions take energy. Today I’m talking about what a white weasel taught me about grace in the in-between, and why practicing remembering God’s hand in our lives matters more than ever.

Ep. 74: Practice Remembering

Fri, 22 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Sometimes faith isn’t about seeing new miracles — it’s about remembering the ones you’ve already seen. Let’s talk about why we forget, and why “practice remembering” might be the most powerful spiritual habit we build.

Ep. 73: For the Doomy Spirals

Thu, 21 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

just because it’s the loudest thought doesn’t mean it’s the truest. today i’m practicing being skeptical of the doom instead of the joy. wanna try with me?”

Ep. 72: Uncomfortably Capable

Wed, 20 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I thought unanswered prayers meant God wasn’t there. Turns out, He was—just making things possible instead of comfortable.

Ep. 71: Lost In the Woods

Tue, 19 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

took my kids on a 12-hour hike (pray for their therapy bills). one got lost in the dark, but she was with my dad, so i felt peace. imagine if we trusted God like that.

Ep. 70: Doubters Anonymous

Mon, 18 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I’ve noticed a habit—exaggerating my doubts while downplaying my faith. Today I share how this shows up in my spiritual life, what it has to do with emotional regulation.

Ep. 69: What If God’s Not Mad at You?

Fri, 15 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

We can’t predict God’s feelings the way we do with people—and yet we try. What if God’s love is bigger, kinder, and more patient than you’ve ever dared to believe?

Ep. 68: Sounds Like a Tomorrow Problem

Thu, 14 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

On free buns, free souls, and the radical choice to not make everything a problem—especially yourself.

Ep. 67: Become the Holy Place

Wed, 13 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

On the decadent gift of stillness, why holy places matter, and what it means to actually become one—no mountain retreat or religious ritual required.

Ep. 66: Why Easy Isn’t Always Better

Tue, 12 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

We live in an age that makes it easy to avoid discomfort—but at what cost? On why resilience, joy, and real confidence are only built by doing the hard things (and why I’ll still keep my cozy blanket).

Ep. 65: Hypothetical Gains

Mon, 11 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Dreams aren’t always the destination—they’re sometimes just the starting point. On change, faith, and letting God dream bigger for you than you ever dared for yourself.

Ep. 64: Baby I Just Need One Good One to Stay

Fri, 08 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

After a night at a Hozier concert, I’m thinking about grief, faith, and why sometimes all we need is one small door left open to God.

Ep. 63: Grief is Back. Tell a Friend.

Thu, 07 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I didn’t see the divinity in real time. But it was there. It always is.

Ep. 62: Not Feeling It Bro

Wed, 06 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

You don’t have to fake it. But you might have to force it. Until you feel it.

Ep. 61: Pulling It Off Is a State of Mind

Tue, 05 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

It’s not about how you’re perceived. It’s about living in alignment with your values. Also: wear what you want. Pulling it off is a state of mind.

Ep. 60: Living Your Truth?

Mon, 04 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Truth is weird. Experience is real. Faith isn’t a competition. And none of us have the whole elephant. Let’s talk about the gray space where God actually shows up.

Ep. 59: Join the Rebellion

Fri, 01 Aug 2025 04:00:00 -0600

If you’ve ever felt too much, not enough, or like you don’t fit in faith—this is your invitation back in. We’re done with the gatekeeping. It’s time to build something new. Together.

Ep. 58: You Can Talk to God About Your Nails

Thu, 31 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

If prayer feels weird, awkward, or like something you forgot how to do—same. But maybe it’s less about saying the “right” thing, and more like catching up with your best friend about your nails. Let’s talk about it.

Ep. 57: The Devil Wears Urgency

Wed, 30 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I once wore a swimsuit to a business conference to avoid being frantic. And honestly? I’d do it again. Let’s talk about why rushing ruins everything, and how stillness isn’t just spiritual—it’s essential. Be still. And maybe put on pants. Or don’t.

Ep. 56: Have We Lost the Plot?

Tue, 29 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

You can follow the rules and still miss the point. Today we talk about fixating, judging, and why God probably doesn’t care about your Sunday donut?

Ep. 55: Disappoint the Right People

Mon, 28 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

New merch, real talk. Faith, people-pleasing, and the freedom of disappointing the right people.

Ep. 54: Your Impact Is Showing

Fri, 25 Jul 2025 05:14:08 -0600

This episode is about the divine power we carry in how we show up for people. You can’t control how others treat you, but you can absolutely decide what you leave in your wake.

Let’s talk about being the reason someone remembers their worth.

Ep.53: Mother Knows Best

Thu, 24 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

sometimes the thing you’re using as proof God doesn’t love you might actually be the thing that proves God does.
this one’s about impossible choices, Eve, and the wise mothers before us. I don’t know, just something to think about.

Ep. 52: It’s Not a Moral Issue, Babe

Wed, 23 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

ever feel like skipping a workout makes you a bad person? like not walking, not journaling, not praying—means you’re failing at life? yeah. same. in this episode, i share a made-up term (“moral transference”) that might explain why you’re so tired, and why everything feels heavier than it should. spoiler: grace is real. and you are not bad.

Ep. 51: Backlash, Breakthroughs & Believing Anyway

Tue, 22 Jul 2025 04:05:00 -0600

I almost gave up this week. She's so dramatic! But divinity showed up—in a parking lot, in a keynote, in a conversation I didn't expect. If you've ever felt too scared to keep going, this one’s for you. Let’s keep trying. The world needs your voice.

Ep. 50: I Guess it Really Was All About the Climb

Mon, 21 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I made it through the wilderness—happy 50th episode to us! This one's about hiking, metaphors, marriage, and finding the one place faith comes easy. Spoiler: it's on a mountain. Love you, mean it.

Ep. 49: WWJD Doesn't Mean What Would Julie Do

Fri, 18 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

this one’s about why i’ve been scared to quote scripture, why spiritual content can get tricky, and why shame-free faith still sometimes means rules. nuanced? yes. always. let’s talk about it.

Ep. 48: Noticing God in the Normal

Thu, 17 Jul 2025 08:16:53 -0600

This episode is all about the tiny, forgettable moments that somehow feel the most sacred. I’m sharing a story from a holiday dinner, some thoughts on why I started this podcast in the first place, and a reminder that God often shows up in the places we’re most likely to overlook.

Ep. 47: Addicted to Suffering?

Wed, 16 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Suffering feels familiar. Faith feels risky. What if we’re clinging to the struggle because we’re afraid of what the light might ask of us? This episode is about that fear—and the grace that meets us when we name it.

Ep. 46: Never Been Worse?

Tue, 15 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

The world feels heavy right now. But this is the world we have. This episode is a call to resist complacency, embrace hope, and move forward with light, faith, and action.

Ep: 45: When Belief Doesn’t Come Easy

Mon, 14 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

What do you do when belief doesn’t feel possible? This episode explores the grief of faith that goes quiet—and the hope that it will return.

Ep.44: Hope Is the Harder Work

Fri, 11 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

A viral video reminded me why I don’t post negative content. In this episode, I reflect on the difference between naming the problem and planting the solution—and why I’ve chosen to live in the light.

Ep. 43: What to Do When People You Love Believe Differently

Thu, 10 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

It’s hard when people we love believe differently than we do—especially when those beliefs used to match. Today, I’m reflecting on what it means to build faith in community, while also learning how to hold it on your own. Because building faith can be a group project… but maintaining it? That’s personal.

Ep.42: Are We Holding People to a Higher Standard Than God?

Wed, 09 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Today’s devotional is an honest reflection on grace, compassion, and how we treat each other. Are we sometimes expecting more from people than even God does? Let’s talk about what it means to extend the grace we so deeply hope to receive.

Ep. 41: The Hypocrisy Problem

Tue, 08 Jul 2025 04:01:00 -0600

Today we’re going there—talking about the real and painful presence of hypocrisy in Christianity. If you’ve felt the dissonance, the grief, or the frustration, you’re not alone. Let’s talk about what we can do, starting with personal accountability and realignment.

Ep. 40: God Won't Force Your Will

Mon, 07 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Sometimes the hardest part isn't being able—it's being willing. I'm sharing a quote that's been stuck in my head about how God can make the willing able, but can't make the able willing, and why that might be the most important thing to understand when life feels impossible. Whether you're unable to get out of bed, choose faith, or find hope—what if willingness is literally all we need to bring to the table?

Ep. 39: Stop Faking It. Talking About Gratitude. Obviously.

Thu, 03 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Gratitude is like drinking water: everyone tells you to do it, and when it works, it’s infuriating. Here’s why real gratitude (not the forced kind) actually changes things.

Ep. 38: When You Can't Feel Anything At All

Wed, 02 Jul 2025 04:01:00 -0600

If you ever feel depressed, numb, or apathetic this one is for you!

Ep. 37: Living With Dissonance

Tue, 01 Jul 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I value nutrition but eat a donut every day, I choose religion despite major conflicts with some beliefs, and honestly I'm tired of trying to make everything in my life perfectly line up. Sometimes the best solution to cognitive dissonance isn't changing your behavior or beliefs - it's just saying "I don't know" and accepting that not everything has to make perfect sense.

Ep. 36: When You Can't Find Divinity Every Day

Mon, 30 Jun 2025 04:00:00 -0600

I'm literally the host of a podcast about finding divinity daily and I'm struggling to find it right now - feeling disconnected, apathetic, and not strongly guided. Here's the thing: it's totally normal to not feel that on-fire spiritual connection 24/7, and I think consistent effort builds you up to a level where you can trust yourself even in the in-between times.

Ep. 35: We've Normalized Enough Things

Fri, 27 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

There’s a difference between removing shame and calling something normal—and we don’t talk about that enough. Today I’m sharing a few thoughts on religious trauma, panic attacks, and why acceptance should be a path to healing, not a permission slip for suffering. No shame here, just soul-deep honesty. God loves you—and I really hope you believe that by the end of this episode.

Ep. 34: Let's Rebrand Guilt

Thu, 26 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

Guilt gets a bad rap—and sometimes for good reason. But what if it’s not meant to shame you, just redirect you? Today we’re giving guilt a little PR makeover. From raw dogging meetings (yes, really) to grief guilt and mom guilt, we’re asking: what if guilt’s just a low tire pressure light for the soul? Let’s talk about it.

Ep. 33: When Life Doesn't Go As Planned

Wed, 25 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

I'm so tired of having to rally every time life throws me a curveball - like can't I just coast for a minute? But here's what I've learned: letting go of the life you thought you should have actually opens up space to enjoy the life you get to have (plot twist pending on that extreme wealth lesson though

Ep 32: Crying in the Club. (The club is Chili's)

Tue, 24 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

Yes choosing to believe is possible, but it gets tiring. Let's talk about it! What if going all in (even when it's scary) might be the cold plunge your soul needs to stop feeling so exhausted by faith?

Ep 31: When You Don't Know What to Teach Your Kids

Mon, 23 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

How do you raise kids with faith when you're not even sure what you believe yourself? Even if you've deconstructed your faith, maybe there are some core pieces (like knowing you're loved, that service matters, that you belong somewhere) that are still worth passing on as a starting point.

Ep. 30: When God is Silent

Fri, 20 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

I'm diving into why those dark moments when you can't hear or feel God are so painful, and sharing what's helped me - like looking for historical evidence, trying new ways to connect, and sometimes just accepting His silent presence. My wise neighbor told me about grief: "nothing helps until something does, so try everything" - and I think the same applies to finding God in the silence.

Ep 29: Expanding Capacity

Thu, 19 Jun 2025 04:00:00 -0600

You know how you can't go from walking around the block to running a marathon overnight? I'm talking about how building spiritual capacity works exactly the same way - you need a comfortable "base pace" (for me it's prayer on hikes) and then you slowly add harder things instead of jumping from atheist to following every religious rule. If you're trying to figure out where you're at with faith, give yourself permission to start where you're comfortable and just microdose spirituality from there.

Ep. 28: Should We Talk About Faith and Emotional Manipulation?

Wed, 18 Jun 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Can we talk about how emotional regulation is actually a spiritual practice? I'm diving into why I think we've gotten it twisted that you have to be moved to tears or have BIG emotions to feel connected to God - like what if He's actually speaking to you in those calm, neutral moments? If you're someone who rarely cries during spiritual moments and wondered if something's wrong with you, this one's for you.

Ep. 27: Does Everything Happen for a Reason?

Tue, 17 Jun 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Okay but like... does everything actually happen for a reason or are we just trying to make ourselves feel better when life gets messy? I'm diving into this big question because honestly, I don't think everything happens for a reason BUT I do think we can assign our own meaning to things (especially the painful stuff) and that's actually pretty powerful. My mantra is "it's more fun to believe" and sometimes choosing to find purpose in the chaos is what gets us through - even if we can't explain it to anyone else.

Ep. 26: Creating Your Own Belonging

Mon, 16 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

Today I'm talking about how we can't always wait for someone to come rescue us from the awkward - sometimes we gotta create our own belonging by just showing up as ourselves, even when it's scary. What if we stopped waiting for permission to belong and just decided we already do?

Ep 25: You Have Nothing to Prove

Fri, 13 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

It's more empowering to quietly live in alignment than to make proclamations for public consumption during our messy middle. Let your life be evidence enough—let your peace be the proof.

Ep. 24: Unchangeable Worth

Thu, 12 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

Today I want you to look for divinity in yourself—have you ever felt unlovable, even by God? Your worth is fixed through divine creation—you'll do good and bad things, but that doesn't change your value as God's child. Try on the belief that you're worthy of His love, serve someone else as a channel for God's love, and experiment with receiving it yourself.

Ep. 23: God, do you hate me?

Wed, 11 Jun 2025 04:06:00 -0600

Despite having more on my plate than ever, I'm not miserable! Looking back at my chaotic career path, every "terrible ending" was actually a necessary step to where I am now. When divinely guided choices end badly, it feels like betrayal, but one thing always leads to the next even when we can't see it. Maybe you don't know what's next in the best possible way.

Ep 22: Let Your Triggers Be Your Guide

Tue, 10 Jun 2025 04:00:00 -0600

When someone's life choices make you angry or judgmental, that's actually about YOU, not them! Our triggers reveal our insecurities and shifting values—recently someone close to me left religion and it tormented me because I was using them to validate my own path. When living differently than those around us, we need God-guided confidence in our values, not validation from others. Use your triggers as soul-searching invitations—they're teaching you something important!

Ep. 21: A Hard Conversation

Mon, 09 Jun 2025 04:00:00 -0600

There's a difference between being an actual victim and victim mentality. Real harm (abuse, loss, institutional failures) isn't your fault, but staying trapped in blame keeps you miserable. An atheist once told me to own my choices after leaving religion—life-changing! Jesus makes accountability less scary because His partnership heals us even when we're wrong. Ask God: "Where's my accountability?" Freedom comes through taking responsibility for what we can control while healing from what we couldn't.

Ep. 20: Deep Breath. Let's Go.

Fri, 06 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

My 3-year-old Sophie is snuggling with me today (perfect timing for this topic!). My friend shared something profound: relief often doesn't come in our darkest closet-floor moments—it comes after we somehow get back up and keep trying. When I look back at my lowest points, I couldn't feel God then, but now I see He was carrying me through pain so deep that even divine help felt absent. Gather evidence from your own life of when relief came—maybe not on your timeline, but it did come. Deep breath. Let's go.

Ep 19: Let's Get Personal

Thu, 05 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

With endless spiritual resources, I sometimes replace my own investment in God with other people's content! While podcasts are great, nothing replaces YOUR relationship with the divine. Living differently than those around you requires personal divine guidance. After a year in AA with people of all belief systems, the common thread was: personal relationship with a higher power matters most. Pick something simple and sustainable—one prayer, four minutes of reading—consistency builds connection better than grand gestures.

Ep 18: Stop Gatekeeping God

Wed, 04 Jun 2025 04:01:00 -0600

Let's talk about stopping the gatekeeping of God! We make up rules about where He can be found and what makes us "worthy," but I find God at Chili's over Diet Coke and chips—those booth conversations are sacred! The only requirement for finding Him is seeking Him. You might study your Bible and feel nothing, then feel divinity during an Eminem song (don't ask). Stop putting restrictions on access to God. Be surprised by where He shows up in your day.

Ep 17: Why I Choose Organized Religion (Right Now)

Tue, 03 Jun 2025 04:02:00 -0600

You've been asking, so here's my honest answer: I choose organized religion right now because it helps me prioritize service and Christ in ways I otherwise wouldn't. I'm not saying it's essential for faith or being good—I've been both in and out of religion twice! But with full-time work and kids in high-demand stages, I don't have extra capacity. Religion gives me built-in community, service opportunities, and worship practices without me having to create it all myself. Desperation brought me back to God, but community brought me back to church. Whatever stage you're in—exploring, wandering, or fully committed—I respect it all.

Ep 16: Say It Out Loud

Mon, 02 Jun 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Sometimes you don't know what you believe until you say it out loud! Sharing beliefs—even before we're sure—can confirm or shift what we think. Whether it's faith, money, or relationships, saying things out loud releases shame and clarifies truth. I know I just said you don't owe declarations, but safe conversations with trusted friends are the experimental lab for building beliefs. Call someone today and practice saying what you think you believe—you might surprise yourself!

Ep 15: Clear Skies Don't Make the Best Sunsets

Fri, 30 May 2025 05:01:00 -0600

Obviously this hit me as a metaphor during a grief walk. A life with no resistance isn't fulfilling—it won't bring depth or teach resilience. Whatever clouds you're facing are likely reflecting your light, even when you can't see it. Don't run from resistance; it's what makes life remarkable. Go look at the sky today and tell me there's no divinity in that!

Ep. 14: Permission to Put It Down

Thu, 29 May 2025 05:01:00 -0600

Sometimes we need breaks from heaviness, and that's healthy coping, not avoidance. When faith questions get overwhelming, you don't have to solve everything RIGHT NOW. You can live in uncertainty, say "I don't know," and take breaks without owing anyone explanations. The big questions will still be there when you're ready to pick them back up.

Ep. 13: Be a Villager

Wed, 28 May 2025 08:10:49 -0600

Let's talk about service with nuance—I'm not advocating for martyrdom! If we want community we need to BE the community. My new mantra: the more I give, the more I'll have to give—it's a divine refill system!

Ep. 12: Prayer and Quantum Physics

Tue, 27 May 2025 04:01:00 -0600

Is prayer real or just fancy wishing? What if our prayers create actual energetic particles that others can pick up? I know I sound crazy with zero evidence, but I've been theorizing about quantum physics and spiritual particles. Maybe prayer isn't about worthiness—maybe it's about aligning ourselves to send and receive mysterious spiritual signals. There's no wrong way to try!

Ep 11: You Don't Know Who You'll Be

Mon, 26 May 2025 04:01:00 -0600

Feeling impending doom? Me too! In this episode, I'm sharing how spirituality intersects with anxiety (not as a cure, but as a tool in my mental health toolkit). Here's what helps: when spiraling about worst-case scenarios, remember you can't anticipate who you'll be when those things happen. My biggest fears have come true—plus much worse—but I wasn't the same person anymore when they did. God had rigorously shaped me into someone who could handle it all. You're being prepared right now for whatever's ahead, even if you can't see it yet.

Ep. 10: You Get to Change Your Mind!

Fri, 23 May 2025 04:01:00 -0600

In this episode, I'm giving you permission to change your mind without apology. We expect growth but punish mind-changing like it's a character flaw. Whether it's switching from styrofoam to plastic cups or shifting entire belief systems, evolution is the point! Life is supposed to transform you—don't grip so tightly to who you used to be. What if you believed differently? Loosen that grip a little and see what happens. You don't have to be who you were yesterday!

Ep. 9: Pick Your Sign

Thu, 22 May 2025 04:01:00 -0600

Today we're choosing your personal reminder that God exists and knows you! Mine is rain (which is rare in desert life). Whenever it rains, my thoughts turn to "God loves me today"—never a bad thought to have! Whether it's a bird, flower, or weather pattern, pick something you love that will prompt divine thoughts when you encounter it. We assign meaning to things anyway, so why not choose ones that serve us? This simple practice builds the habit of connecting everyday moments with divine love. What will your sign be?

Ep. 8: The Impossible

Wed, 21 May 2025 04:00:00 -0600

In this episode, I'm challenging you to notice what "impossible" things you're normalizing in your own life. We so often downplay the extraordinary things we endure and accomplish daily. Where is the impossible becoming possible in your everyday life? That's where the real miracles are happening—and I don't use that word lightly. If you want evidence of divine intervention, look at your everyday life and what you're carrying.

Ep. 7: Don't Do It for Heaven

Tue, 20 May 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Why is faith always sold as "do this for heaven" when these practices make life better TODAY? Whether God is real or not, heroin is still bad, right? I'm making the case for choosing faith because it improves your Tuesday, not your eternity. This mindset saves you from throwing everything out when faith gets shaky. Don't do it for the afterlife—do it because it makes you better right now.

Ep 6: Faith is the New Rebellion

Mon, 19 May 2025 04:00:00 -0600

Plot twist: what if choosing hope in our cynical world is actually REBELLIOUS!? I'm sharing how my rebel heart finally found its match in willingly choosing faith. Believing in impossible things feels like the ultimate defiance. If you're a natural wanderer who needs to touch the stove fifteen times, welcome to the Faith Rebellion—it's way more thrilling than traditional rebellion!

Ep. 5: God Never Leaves

Fri, 16 May 2025 04:00:00 -0600

You're hot! But on a more serious note—are you wondering if God is real? In this episode, I'm sharing the ONE thing I want you to trust me on (besides your hotness): God never leaves, even when we leave Him. This quick devotional offers a simple belief-shifting exercise to try on today.

Ep. 4: Results May Vary

Thu, 15 May 2025 04:00:00 -0600

What if God designed spiritual growth to happen without the dopamine hit of immediate results? In this episode, I'm challenging our results-obsessed culture and sharing why some of our most important work (like motherhood!) often feels thankless. What happens when we find value in the effort itself, regardless of outcome? This quick devotional might just free you from the validation trap and help you notice the subtle ways your consistent spiritual efforts are changing everything—even if you can't draw a direct line between cause and effect.

Ep. 3: Inspired to Suffer?

Wed, 14 May 2025 04:00:00 -0600

When inspiration leads to disaster, did God set you up? Let's talk about those confusing moments when divine guidance seemingly leads us straight into pain. This quick devotional challenges us to release our grip on outcomes and find the divine breadcrumbs even in the aftermath of suffering. Let's play this fun game of trusting the nudges, even when the results aren't what we expected!

Ep. 2: Divine Disappointment

Tue, 13 May 2025 04:10:00 -0600

Has God ever disappointed you? Let's talk about it. What if we changed our approach? I'm sharing how this perspective shift transformed my faith journey through loss and might just change your relationship with divinity too. This quick 10-minute devotional offers a fresh approach to life's biggest disappointments—without minimizing the pain. Let's gamify finding divinity in our day, even when things fall apart!

Ep. 1: Is God real? And other light questions.

Sun, 11 May 2025 18:35:28 -0600

Let's start off by keeping things nice and light—is God real?? These quick episodes (under 10 min!) are the perfect morning spiritual boost. Think devotional, but make it fun!