Restoring the Fallen Leaders https://emailraenel.podbean.com A safe, completely confidential space for leaders from all walks of life—including corporate executives, community figures, and ministry professionals—who are secretly struggling with guilt, shame, moral failure, or hidden burdens that have derailed their lives. Hosted by Raenel, who shares her raw story of surviving 27 years in a same sex relationship before being rescued by the radical, relentless grace of God. If the weight of condemnation is destroying your life, your career, or your relationships, this is your safe harbor. Step out of the isolation, break the cycle of self-sabotage, and discover a path to true inner healing, identity, and restoration. Because your story is not over... it's just beginning.

]]> Tue, 13 Oct 2026 23:30:30 -0300 https://podbean.com/?v=5.5 en Copyright 2026 All rights reserved. Religion & Spirituality:Christianity 1440 episodic Raenel Raenel No false https://pbcdn1.podbean.com/imglogo/image-logo/22571419/pdc_logo_1789663899751.jpg Restoring the Fallen Leaders https://emailraenel.podbean.com 144 144 Episode 10 Addiction, Bad Habits, and Iniquity - Why Addiction is Not a Disease Episode 10 Addiction, Bad Habits, and Iniquity - Why Addiction is Not a Disease https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/episode-10-addiction-bad-habits-and-iniquity-why-addiction-is-not-a-disease/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/episode-10-addiction-bad-habits-and-iniquity-why-addiction-is-not-a-disease/#comments Tue, 13 Oct 2026 23:30:30 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/3be0f642-61ce-5e61-a742-488144ec6b4d Raenel false No 651 full Episode 11 We Were All the Prodigal Episode 11 We Were All the Prodigal https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/episode-11-we-were-all-the-prodigal/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/episode-11-we-were-all-the-prodigal/#comments Tue, 13 Oct 2026 07:30:54 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/f2b65886-0e8f-5847-b8c9-46324caa8974 Raenel false No 772 full Episode 12 Faith By Works - Dreaming With God Episode 12 Faith By Works - Dreaming With God https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/episode-12-faith-by-works-dreaming-with-god/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/episode-12-faith-by-works-dreaming-with-god/#comments Tue, 13 Oct 2026 07:30:03 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/ec02f53e-4489-58d0-b68e-6555004197a0 Raenel false No 1009 full My Shapeshifter Neighbor When Fear Is at the Door My Shapeshifter Neighbor When Fear Is at the Door https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/my-shapeshifter-neighbor-spiritual-warfare-testimony/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/my-shapeshifter-neighbor-spiritual-warfare-testimony/#comments Tue, 29 Sep 2026 05:00:47 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/be7c95b7-d27d-50f3-a1b3-0b67ba02a056 He opened the door, and I saw darkness wafting out from behind him as I entered. In 1979, right after I was saved, I came face to face with the neighbor next door. He did not move. He did not say a thing. He was waiting for me to react to fear. Fear is a door that demands a reaction to its feeling. Faith is not a feeling. I had peace, and I walked out.

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]]> He opened the door, and I saw darkness wafting out from behind him as I entered. In 1979, right after I was saved, I came face to face with the neighbor next door. He did not move. He did not say a thing. He was waiting for me to react to fear. Fear is a door that demands a reaction to its feeling. Faith is not a feeling. I had peace, and I walked out.

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]]> Raenel false No 833 14 full Overcoming Self-Sabotage: Radical Freedom from the Past Overcoming Self-Sabotage: Radical Freedom from the Past https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/never-let-the-devil-show-off/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/never-let-the-devil-show-off/#comments Tue, 29 Sep 2026 05:00:25 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/6f565333-8dc5-592e-8f72-5fcfa61b2e5b She shape-shifted right before my eyes.

In a mental ward, a woman's face was not her face. I told her, "In the name of Jesus, I am not afraid. I know who you are." In the Philippines, a minister told me, "Don't ever let the devil show off." I've never forgotten it. Deliverance is all through the Gospels. He did it for Mary Magdalene. He did it for me. And He'll do it for you.

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]]> She shape-shifted right before my eyes.

In a mental ward, a woman's face was not her face. I told her, "In the name of Jesus, I am not afraid. I know who you are." In the Philippines, a minister told me, "Don't ever let the devil show off." I've never forgotten it. Deliverance is all through the Gospels. He did it for Mary Magdalene. He did it for me. And He'll do it for you.

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]]> Raenel false No 730 12 full The Oldest Identity Crisis: Lost at the Vegas Black & White Party The Oldest Identity Crisis: Lost at the Vegas Black & White Party https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/the-oldest-identity-crisis/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/the-oldest-identity-crisis/#comments Tue, 29 Sep 2026 05:00:17 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/6f3497ec-a196-5ca5-b374-e6746451f576 I had traded Jesus for a moment of lust with a woman. Redemption would come 27 years later. At the Black and White Party, an LGBTAIDS fundraiser in Las Vegas, a young man pulled me up on stage to dance and couldn't believe I was a woman. That night I knew I was in the wrong world. I wanted out, but had nowhere else to go. Everyone, when they realize they are lost, hopes they'll be found. That was me.

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]]> I had traded Jesus for a moment of lust with a woman. Redemption would come 27 years later. At the Black and White Party, an LGBTAIDS fundraiser in Las Vegas, a young man pulled me up on stage to dance and couldn't believe I was a woman. That night I knew I was in the wrong world. I wanted out, but had nowhere else to go. Everyone, when they realize they are lost, hopes they'll be found. That was me.

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]]> Raenel false No 637 16 full Defeating Condemnation & Fear: The Enemy's Strategies Defeating Condemnation & Fear: The Enemy's Strategies https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/i-saw-you-in-the-camp/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/i-saw-you-in-the-camp/#comments Thu, 24 Sep 2026 17:31:06 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/82d6af78-6eb7-5ef8-b9ce-60ecfe05e1c8 God showed me a camp full of officers with no country and no rank. Then He said two words that changed everything. In 2012, the day the Holy Spirit came for me, I saw an open vision. Then I heard His voice: "You've been in the enemy's camp and you've seen his strategies. Now go." It took fourteen years to learn what that vision meant. It was about you.

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]]> God showed me a camp full of officers with no country and no rank. Then He said two words that changed everything. In 2012, the day the Holy Spirit came for me, I saw an open vision. Then I heard His voice: "You've been in the enemy's camp and you've seen his strategies. Now go." It took fourteen years to learn what that vision meant. It was about you.

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]]> Raenel false No 717 10 full Protected in Deception: Finding God's Relentless Grace Protected in Deception: Finding God's Relentless Grace https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/protected-in-slow-motion/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/protected-in-slow-motion/#comments Thu, 24 Sep 2026 16:24:18 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/da21f1e2-8051-5bb1-9730-ded95f3d1b00 I was a New Age minister when two pieces of plywood lifted off a truck and came sailing toward our windshield on a California freeway. I called out to Jesus. Everything changed to slow motion except us, and Mara was able to move us out of the line of destruction. We were in the world, in the middle of our deception, and God met us and saved us anyway. What breadcrumbs has God given you to remind you of His goodness?

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]]> I was a New Age minister when two pieces of plywood lifted off a truck and came sailing toward our windshield on a California freeway. I called out to Jesus. Everything changed to slow motion except us, and Mara was able to move us out of the line of destruction. We were in the world, in the middle of our deception, and God met us and saved us anyway. What breadcrumbs has God given you to remind you of His goodness?

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]]> Raenel false No 739 8 full Waving the White Flag: How to Stop Trying to Deserve It Waving the White Flag: How to Stop Trying to Deserve It https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/hold-still-i-m-changing-you/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/hold-still-i-m-changing-you/#comments Thu, 24 Sep 2026 14:47:14 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/07ddc247-2ca5-5b84-8fdd-a7cbdb96d746 You'll never deserve anything from God. Everything is a gift. For this girl, a for 27 years, believing that took a lot of meditating and confessing scripture. No church. No one to disciple me. It was me and the Word. God showed me a father at the changing table. The baby fights him, and the daddy says, "Hold still. I'm changing you." Surrender is when you stop trying. I keep a white flag by my bed.

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]]> You'll never deserve anything from God. Everything is a gift. For this girl, a for 27 years, believing that took a lot of meditating and confessing scripture. No church. No one to disciple me. It was me and the Word. God showed me a father at the changing table. The baby fights him, and the daddy says, "Hold still. I'm changing you." Surrender is when you stop trying. I keep a white flag by my bed.

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]]> Raenel false No 712 6 full Running From Your Calling? The Fork in the Road Running From Your Calling? The Fork in the Road https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/the-fork-in-the-road-said-one-way/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/the-fork-in-the-road-said-one-way/#comments Thu, 17 Sep 2026 14:21:24 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/3a1a046b-d3e7-56cb-a261-454a9bd7bc31 The fork in the road is only deception. For us, there's only one way. When you surrender and yield to obey what you know God wants you to do, it's not sacrifice. It's obedience. Obedience is better than sacrifice. The fork in the road should have a sign that says One Way. Otherwise, it's same party, different dress. You get to go around the mountain again.

Scripture: 1 Samuel 15:22

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]]> The fork in the road is only deception. For us, there's only one way. When you surrender and yield to obey what you know God wants you to do, it's not sacrifice. It's obedience. Obedience is better than sacrifice. The fork in the road should have a sign that says One Way. Otherwise, it's same party, different dress. You get to go around the mountain again.

Scripture: 1 Samuel 15:22

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]]> Raenel false No 608 full Breaking Guilt & Shame: True Forgiveness After a Fall Breaking Guilt & Shame: True Forgiveness After a Fall https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/he-forgives-and-forgets/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/he-forgives-and-forgets/#comments Thu, 17 Sep 2026 14:18:14 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/97f65b28-7abb-5e7b-8b62-13c4e5b233d3 The story of when I was 17 and got arrested, and the fear I had of my dad and his retribution because of how I grew up. And years later, how he never remembered. Not just didn't want to remember; he actually didn't remember. And I understood God's love because of my earthly father, his forgiveness, and over 40 years later, remembering no more. Scripture: Hebrews 8:12

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]]> The story of when I was 17 and got arrested, and the fear I had of my dad and his retribution because of how I grew up. And years later, how he never remembered. Not just didn't want to remember; he actually didn't remember. And I understood God's love because of my earthly father, his forgiveness, and over 40 years later, remembering no more. Scripture: Hebrews 8:12

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]]> Raenel false No 467 4 full Fallen Evangelist Testimony: Secret Shame and the Fall at 56 Fallen Evangelist Testimony: Secret Shame and the Fall at 56 https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/lost-again/ https://emailraenel.podbean.com/e/lost-again/#comments Thu, 17 Sep 2026 14:16:14 -0300 emailraenel.podbean.com/9e5961e9-e8c7-5abf-adf7-f1563b11397d I was a full-time evangelist who fell in one moment of lust that spiraled into 27 years. But He left the 99 and came after me. In this first episode, I tell you who I am and how I got here, where I've been and what I've done. The important thing is that God always uses fallen people. Scripture: 1 Corinthians 1:27–29

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]]> I was a full-time evangelist who fell in one moment of lust that spiraled into 27 years. But He left the 99 and came after me. In this first episode, I tell you who I am and how I got here, where I've been and what I've done. The important thing is that God always uses fallen people. Scripture: 1 Corinthians 1:27–29

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