Minute to Freedom

Approval Seeking

Sun, 06 Mar 2011 20:48:56 -0600

Have you ever felt like everybody had to be OK with anything you did? One of the traits I carried into adulthood from growing up in an alcoholic family was constantly seeking approval for my actions.

Learning To Feel

Sun, 06 Mar 2011 20:47:25 -0600

Has it ever seemed like you are numb to the events in your world? It has for me. When I was 8 my grandfather died, and the family acted as if nothing happened, and I felt no sadness or emotions about it. I had learned to stuff my feelings, and carried that into my adult life.

Inner Child

Sun, 06 Mar 2011 20:45:30 -0600

Have you ever felt like a little kid in an adult world? Remember the movie Big, with Tom Hanks? I was in an adult body, but in many ways I was still 13 year old Josh Baskin, sitting in a dumpy motel room in New York City, scared to death.

Not My Fault

Sun, 06 Mar 2011 20:42:42 -0600

Have you ever felt like you're responsible for everything that happens? Whatever is going on - somehow, it is your fault? You are to blame.

Isolation

Sun, 06 Mar 2011 20:40:55 -0600

Isolation is one of the most damaging effects of growing up in an alcoholic household. Like many adult children of alcoholics, I had this trait.

I Can't Remember

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:24:45 -0600

Has it ever seemed like there were chunks of your childhood you just couldn't remember? I know most people have things they have forgotten, but what I'm talking about is where there might be blank spaces in your past.

I Won't Be Like Him

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:23:16 -0600

I decide in my early '20s the one thing I wanted most in life was not to be like my Dad. Then I realized with a shock I had become just like my Father.

Easily Discouraged

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:20:51 -0600

Has it ever felt like you give up easily if something doesn't seem to be working out? I discovered that for me, it was connected to being put down or humiliated when I successfully completed a project as a child.

Paralysis of Analysis

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:19:26 -0600

Have you ever felt like you were so caught up in analyzing problems that you were immobilized? Stewing over problems without deciding was a way not to take a risk, and I had to learn to work on problems differently in order to actually solve them.

What Is Normal?

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:16:45 -0600

Have you ever wondered what was normal in a certain situation. I often have, because in my household growing up, there were very few stable patterns of behavior - everything was unpredictable.

Thinking In Absolutes

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:14:31 -0600

Yes, no, black or white, for me or against me. Any of that sound familiar? Either you agreed with me, or I would have to make you a bad person in my mind to defend my position. I have learned to respect the opinions of others, and sometimes "agree to disagree."

Automatic Lying

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:12:55 -0600

Have you ever found yourself lying about something when there was really no reason to do so? As a child, if I admitted to anything, it could lead to a negative and painful consequence. I learned to always deny knowing anything.

Undeserved Loyalty

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:11:30 -0600

Have you ever found yourself defending someone who is taking advantage of you? I had a friend who would call every time he needed some help with his house. But he was never around when I needed something. I had to decide my time was worth more than that.

Finishing Things

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:10:06 -0600

Has it ever felt like you struggled to finish things - an assignment at work, a fixit project at home? As a child, I learned that things just never got finished where you could enjoy them. I continued that logic into adulthood.

Don't Talk

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:08:44 -0600

Is there something inside you that makes you sense that if you talk about what's going on with you, it will lead to bad things? I had to learn all over how to talk about what happened and what was happening, and how I felt about it.

Come Here, Go Away!

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:06:16 -0600

Do you ever let people get close, and then it feels like they're too close, and you push them away? I would even create fights with someone after we'd gotten close. I had to realize that not everyone was dangerous and threatening.

Feeling Different

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:04:42 -0600

Have you ever felt like you were out of step with the world around you? I remember being at a church retreat with 70 people, and here I was, somehow separated and different from the others in the group.

Controlling Behavior

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:03:12 -0600

Have you ever been told you're controlling? I was told that, and didn't like it, but as I started looking at how I was living in my world, I discovered it was true. I was trying to control today's events like I couldn't control the alcoholic family of my teenage years.

Overreacting

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:01:09 -0600

Have you ever been told you overreact to things? I've heard that a lot, because things that happened in my world all seemed out of proportion or scarier than they actually were.

Fear of Discovery

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:57:56 -0600

Have you ever felt like you can't tell people who you really are? In my case, I couldn't because I didn't know who I was. And I was afraid if people discovered how I really was, they wouldn't like me.

We Won't Regret The Past

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:55:37 -0600

There's a saying in some literature that says we won't regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it. I didn't think that statement could apply to me. But as a result of doing the hard work of recovery, I've seen it come true.

They Rule From The Grave

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:53:43 -0600

I knew a guy once who was just waiting for his alcoholic mother die - so he would no longer have to deal with his issues around her drinking. It didn't happen that way. He tried to avoid it, but he would act like she was still in the room, telling him the same negative messages from childhood.

What God Is Doing For Us

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:51:34 -0600

There's a saying, we will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves. I didn't believe that was possible for a long time, until I saw it happening in my world.

Being Invisible

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:50:02 -0600

If I am invisible and no one sees me, then no one can hurt me. A friend told me she used to watch me walk into our Sunday School class, trying to slide into the back and disappear into the crowd.

Hero Child

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:48:42 -0600

One of the roles in an alcoholic family is to be the hero - the one who fixes the problem, cleans up the mess from the drinking, and is viewed as a savior within that world. I did that a lot, but it was just a mask I hid behind, so people wouldn't see how scared and inadequate I usually felt.

Peacemaker

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:46:46 -0600

Do you hate conflict? Want to always make peace wherever you are? I learned that as a child - to smooth over the rough waters so conflict would hopefully go away. If there was no conflict, there could be no dangerous backsplash on me.

Affirmations

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:45:16 -0600

Do you ever feel like you're responding to life based on some old messages stuck in your head? I was living that way, until I was introduced to affirmation. I Dan, am a loving and worthwhile person.

Upset Stomach

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:43:27 -0600

Ever had an upset stomach? I did for years, and thought it was exclusively a physical ailment. When I started working on my issues from growing up in an alcoholic family, I realized my upset stomach was something I had first experienced in the turbulence and uncertainty of the violent household.

Double Messages

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:41:46 -0600

Have you ever been confused by a double message? By that I mean the sort of things I learned as a child. "You're incompetent - take care of the house." I learned to be very responsible as a child, while at the same time being told I wasn't very good at whatever I was doing.

Being The Clown

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:39:55 -0600

Have you ever joked around a lot and been the life of the party? Has it ever felt like a mask? "Although I might be laughing loud and hearty, deep inside I'm blue." I had a friend see through my clown one time, and helped me see how I used it as a mask.

Indecision

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:37:05 -0600

Do you ever find it tough to make a decision? I learned in business school that not to decide is to decide. I discovered that when I was growing up, if I didn't make a decision, I didn't take a risk, and was less exposed to bad things happening.

Magical Thinking

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:35:34 -0600

Have you ever felt like there was some solution that was just going to magically appear and make your world better? As a teenager, I would sit in my room reading Swiss Family Robinson, about a loving family, and think something would happen to make our family that way.

The Color Purple

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:31:10 -0600

One of my favorite lines from that movie is "I think God gets ticked off if we don't see the color purple." I sometimes get so wrapped up in the big events of my world that I forget to stop to appreciate the small but very significant things that surround me.

Parenting My Inner Child

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:29:31 -0600

Have you ever felt like you're still a kid in many ways? That's the essence of the inner child, and although it sounds hokey and '80s to talk in those terms, I think there is a real truth to it. I never learned how to grow up in many ways.

Serenity

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:27:25 -0600

Have you ever wondered what serenity was, and what it really felt like? When I first started dealing with the effects of growing up in an alcoholic family, it was just an abstract concept to me.

Recovery Is Hard Work

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:25:44 -0600

Recovery is hard work. It is - it just is! Growing up as the child with an alcoholic and violent father was not a path I chose. Yet as an adult, I was left with the effects of it, and there was just no way around that. Doing the work to move beyond those issues was just a lot of tough work!

Shame

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:22:49 -0600

Have you ever felt like you should be apologizing for being born? I took on a sense of shame, of being a mistake, from an early age. The shame was so woven into the fabric of my being that I didn't even know it was there.

Frozen Ego

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:21:27 -0600

Frozen ego? What is that? A therapist once told me that as a result of a traumatic incident, your ego might freeze at the age you were when the traumatic event happened. It really helped me understand my world - because I was operating as a terrified 14 year old boy much of the time.

Delayed Reactions

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:18:30 -0600

Has someone ever said something, and you figure out the absolute wonderful response - 3 days later? At the time a situation happens, I feel frozen and can't think of what to say, particularly if there is a negative edge to what is being said to me.

Lost Child

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 20:21:38 -0600

Usually there's one child in an alcoholic family who gets lost in the shuffle. I watched this happen with a friend. Lucy was a bright, gifted and talented person, who didn't understand that about herself, and would instead fade into the background and be hard to connect with.

Blocked Creativity

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 20:16:03 -0600

My creativity had been shut down by a bizarre comment made by my grandmother when I was 8 years old. Publishing my first book was a tremendous thrill, since it signaled that I had exposed the lie, and conquered that old writer's block.

Putting People in Categories

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 20:12:23 -0600

A friend once told me, "Dan, you put people in categories, you pigeonhole them into the type of person you think they are. Then when they do something that doesn't fit the category you assigned them, you don't know what that means, so you get mad at them."

Not Being A Scapegoat

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 20:04:35 -0600

Have you ever found yourself taking on the blame for events in your world? Somehow becoming the focus of bad outcomes? As a teenager I became the lightning rod for my Dad's anger, and it continued into my adult world.

Instant Intimacy

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 20:02:06 -0600

I heard a guy say one time in a men's group that he could fall in love, become involved, get rejected and feel sad, all while walking past a woman he didn't know at the park. We all laughed because we related!

Gratitude

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:48:56 -0600

When I first started dealing with the effects of growing up in an alcoholic family, it was hard to feel grateful about anything. But I have begun to realize how lucky I have been to have found resources to help me overcome those problems.

Resentments

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:47:08 -0600

Has it ever seemed like you're angry at someone, and can hardly think about anything else? I had a lot of resentments about how I thought others had mistreated me.

Self Sabotage

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:45:03 -0600

Have you ever felt like somehow you're getting in your own way? In the '80s, I was working in the oil industry in Houston, and when I attained the highest pay for my segment of the industry, I suddenly decided I was tired of that work, and needed to go do something else.

Taking My Own Advice

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:43:22 -0600

Has it ever seemed like you could see what others needed to do in a situation, but couldn't see the same for yourself? One of my friends said, "you know what your friends say when they're mad at you? Why can't he take his own advice." Well, that brought me up short.

Tough Love

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:41:19 -0600

Tough love. So what is that? Has it ever seemed like someone is taking advantage of you, even when you may have told them to stop? I teach people how to treat me, and if I don't change how we interact, it's me who is letting it continue.

Trusting Others

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:39:34 -0600

Has it ever felt tough to trust that a friend is really there for you? When I was growing up in an alcoholic family, I learned never to trust anyone. Yet in adulthood, friends who really did have my best good in mind were kept outside a fence that only I could break down.

Being Spontaneous

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:38:15 -0600

Has it ever seemed like it was difficult to just let go and do something on the spur of the moment? I have had a lot of trouble with being spontaneous - unexpected events were frightening.

Keep it Simple

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:36:31 -0600

Has it ever seemed like your world is terribly complicated? That you just go from one crisis to the next? I had learned to seek out and perpetuate crisis from growing up in an alcoholic household, and thrived on the rush of constant upsets in my world.

Hypervigilance

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:35:06 -0600

Hypervigilance. What the heck is that? In my world, it meant always being in what I call "on patrol" mentality. It was like I was in a war zone, and the bad guys were out in the bushes. Growing up in an alcoholic family, the slightest misstep could make me the target of my Dad's anger.

Detachment

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:33:22 -0600

Has it ever felt like you were getting sucked into the drama of someone else's world? As I experienced that, sometimes I had to step away - detach myself - from certain people. Getting wrapped up in the chaos of another person's life, I wasn't doing myself any good.

Developing Faith

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:31:42 -0600

Has it ever seemed tough to rely on God? When I started dealing with the effects of growing up in an alcoholic family, I discovered my attempts at faith were more superficial than I had thought.

Go The Distance

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:30:06 -0600

Yes, it's the line from Field of Dreams, but boy, it's a good one! It's a good concept in life - I might not get very far each day, but if I'm still moving, still trying, that's a good day!

Call Someone

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:28:36 -0600

Have you ever felt like you had things on your mind, and didn't know what to do about it? Calling someone wasn't something I thought of, but it gave me a huge amount of relief as I went through the grief process.

Finding Hope

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:26:48 -0600

Has it ever seemed like things were just going to stay the same, and that wasn't good? By addressing my problems, beginning to find solutions, and seeing changes in my world, it allowed me to feel hopeful for the first time in a long while.

Peripheral Vision

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:24:17 -0600

Have you ever been trying to work through a problem and you've looked at it so intently, that you almost can't see it any more, and are not closer to solving it? If I let my peripheral vision work on a problem I'm dealing with, I will suddenly see my answer with a lot less fretting and worry.

Being Transparent

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:19:04 -0600

Have you ever felt like you were being one person at home and another in public? I didn't really trust that if I showed my vulnerable side to the world, anyone would like me. I would keep my true self hidden, so I wouldn't get hurt.

People Pleasing

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:08:40 -0600

Have you ever found yourself doing things you didn't want to do, just so others would like you? That was something I learned when I was young.

Courage

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:07:28 -0600

When I started dealing with the effects of growing up in an alcoholic family, I was so bound up in the fear and terror of what I had lived through as a child, that those emotions were all I could see for a long time. Yet later I started seeing how much courage it took for me to confront those issues!

Parents and Paradox

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:05:39 -0600

Have you ever felt like you had a love/hate relationship with a parent? When I was in my '30s, the thing I wanted most was not to end up being like my Dad. Then I realized with a shock that I had become just like my Dad.

Seeking Outside Help

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:03:56 -0600

Has it ever seemed like your problems are bigger than you can deal with on your own? When I sought the help of professionals, it gave me invaluable insight and assistance in dealing with my carryover issues from childhood.

Progress

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:02:03 -0600

Have you ever taken a step forward and not long after found yourself two steps behind where you started? At times I was growing faster than my mind could accept - I was trying for revolutionary progress. These days, I am better off trying for evolutionary progress.

Low Self Esteem

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:54:05 -0600

Have friends ever told you to give yourself a break? Did it ever seem like you didn't think much of yourself? I had that experience a lot, where someone would try to compliment me or say something nice to me, and I would find a reason not to believe them.

Being Gentle With Myself

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:51:43 -0600

Have you ever felt like you're being too tough on yourself? It often seemed like I was doing that - nothing I ever did measured up, and I would focus on the strikeout I had in the softball game, rather than the 3 hits and the great catch I made in the outfield.

Learning to Feel Joy

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:49:33 -0600

Has it ever seemed like it's hard to feel happiness or joy? Easy to feel pain, but tough to feel excitement? I discovered that when I was growing up in an alcoholic family, every time I felt excited and joyful about something I did, I got put down or hurt.

Owning My Talents

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:48:13 -0600

Have you ever felt like you can't appreciate your talents the way you could for someone else? I could tell you that David was a gifted speaker, or a talented athlete, but I couldn't see the same thing about myself.

Denial

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:46:51 -0600

Has it ever seemed like you had blinders on about your world? I did for a number of years. If I was in denial about my behavior, I actually couldn't see what I had done, although my actions were obvious to everyone around me.

Fear of Success

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:45:34 -0600

Have you ever found yourself more comfortable if things didn't work out, than if you succeeded? I was once told it looked like I was not afraid of failure, but afraid of success. The statement rang true.

Release Anger But Don't Hurt

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:38:55 -0600

Have you ever felt like you had to hold on tightly because if you let your anger surface, it would just explode? I was like that in my mid '30. It was affecting my health, and I finally had to face how angry I was.

Spacing Out

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:37:17 -0600

Have you ever had something traumatic happen, like a family crisis, and you found yourself just spacing out? I would do that - be frozen to the spot and not able to take action.

Dependent Personality

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:31:51 -0600

Have you ever felt like your world rotated around someone else, and that person had the ability to determine your happiness? For me it almost felt like a physical craving that I had to be around the woman I was involved with, and sometimes I would do crazy things.

Not Being A Victim

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:30:01 -0600

Have you ever felt like a victim? Like everyone was out to get you? I was hurt as a child, I was victimized. No doubt about it. But if I carry that mentality into adulthood, it's now a problem that I'm carrying.

What Am I Doing For Fun?

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:27:33 -0600

Have you ever felt like you were too serious? That it was tough to let go and just have fun? When a friend asked "What are you doing for fun?" it used to bug me, because I couldn't come up with many examples of fun in my life.

Frightened by Angry People

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:25:59 -0600

Have you ever been frightened by an angry person? I'm sure most of us have at some point. But for me being around anger brought up a deep terror. Because I knew from growing up in an alcoholic household how anger could explode, and how dangerous that could be.

Helping Others

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:23:33 -0600

Have you ever felt like you just weren't being useful? That your problems were so overwhelming that they became your whole world? Yet there's a great deal of truth in that old saying, "you don't get it until you give it away."

Willingness

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:20:57 -0600

Have you ever felt like you just didn't want to look at the problems that were plaguing your life? I was like that for many years, and yet - it didn't make those problems go away.

Being Self Critical

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:19:04 -0600

Has it ever felt like you were being too critical of yourself? That whatever you did, it wasn't good enough? If I got a 98 on a test, I beat myself up over the 2 I missed rather than feeling good about the high score.

Honor The Intuition

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:15:14 -0600

Have you ever felt like your gut is telling you something is wrong, but others are saying, "No, everything's fine," and you find it all very confusing? Growing up in an alcoholic family I was taught to doubt my intuition.

Confusing Love and Pity

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:13:39 -0600

Have you ever thought you were in love with someone, only to discover later that you really just felt sorry for them? I would find a woman who was in great turmoil, become involved with her and think I was "in love." Really, I was embroiled in her chaos.

Unresolved Grief

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:11:59 -0600

Have you ever gotten upset at something happening today, but you are more upset or sad than seems reasonable for the current event? I experienced that a number of times, and discovered I was tapping into unresolved grief.

Loss of Identity

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:10:05 -0600

Have you ever experienced acting a different way in a group to be able to blend in? Growing up, I learned to be a chameleon, becoming whatever I thought people wanted, in order to fit in.

Authority Figures

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:08:28 -0600

Has a situation ever made you feel like you were the small child in front of the teacher's desk, afraid you had done something wrong? I learned that growing up with a Dad who was the ultimate authority, and I had to do whatever I could to appease him.

Loving Yourself

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:06:33 -0600

Have you ever felt like you could be loving toward others, but just couldn't give that same level of caring to yourself? There's a Bible verse that says, you shall love your neighbor as you love yourself. I always focused on the loving your neighbor part, sometimes neglecting myself in the process.

Define The Problem

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:04:49 -0600

Have you ever felt like something was wrong in your life, but you just couldn't put your finger on what it was? One of my favorite sayings is "defining the problem is half the solution." As I connected my adult behaviors with the events of my childhood, everything began to make more sense.

Doesn't Have to Be Perfect

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:03:14 -0600

Have you ever felt like you had to have things just so - that everything had to be perfect? A good friend remembered as a teenager trying to fold his slacks perfectly - just so - on the hanger.

Addicted to Excitement

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 18:01:41 -0600

Have you ever felt like you needed thrills to keep your adrenalin pumping? Actually needed the rush? I remember one time skiing so fast I could tell I had to stay on my skis or have a devastating injury.

God Turns Up the Volume

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:57:43 -0600

Have you ever felt like the same issues or problems keep coming up over and over in your life? With jobs, I would start out as the Golden Child at a new job, and somehow end up as the Black Sheep and eventually have to quit or be fired.

Face The Truth

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:56:13 -0600

Have you ever found it difficult to face up to the truth about what is going on in your world? I had to face that there was something really wrong with my life, and it was something I couldn't fix by force of will.

Responsibility (Overdeveloped)

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:54:29 -0600

Have you ever felt like you were being too responsible? Taking care of things that other people should be dealing with for themselves? I remember taking on projects that other people should be doing, and then becoming resentful about the burden.

The Support of Others

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:51:32 -0600

Have you ever felt like you couldn't count on anyone, that you had to do everything by yourself? As a child, I learned that I should never rely on or need others - they would only let you down.

Standing Up For Myself

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:48:55 -0600

Have you ever had trouble standing up for what you needed? Did you cave in to what others wanted, and give yourself up in the process? I didn't stand up for myself when I needed to, and got into something that wasn't right for me.

Boundaries

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:46:47 -0600

Have you ever felt like people were crowding you, and you didn't know exactly how it happened, or what to do about it? As a child, I wasn't allowed to have my own space, and didn't even know I could.

Hard To Trust

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:43:59 -0600

Have you ever felt like it took a long time to be able to trust people? And then - if that trust was broken, it was very hard to trust that person ever again? Sad to say, I had a pattern of pushing people away and then declaring them untrustworthy.

Releasing Fear

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:41:51 -0600

Have you ever felt like you were afraid all the time? When I was a child, I remember sitting in my room feeling afraid. I carried that fear mentality into adulthood, and discovered it was related to growing up in an alcoholic family, feeling the fear of what might happen when the drinking started.

The Right To Make Mistakes

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:39:25 -0600

Have you ever thought you just couldn't afford to make mistakes - you had to do everything just right? When I was growing up, I learned I had to do everything perfectly, or there might be unpredictable consequences.

Unmanageable

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:30:18 -0600

Has it ever seemed like your world was going places you didn't like, but you didn't know how to change it?

Abandonment

Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:29:03 -0600

Has it ever felt scary to think you might end up all alone? That someone might have abandoned you forever?