For years, I thought the story of the prodigal son was about two brothers.

One who ran.

One who stayed.

But what if we’ve been asking the wrong question?

What if Jesus wasn’t inviting us to choose which brother we are?

What if He was revealing the heart of the Father?

In this episode, we explore one of Jesus’ most well-known parables through a different lens. We talk about shame, performance, striving, grace, and the realization that both sons misunderstood what it meant to belong.

The younger brother believed, “I can never be enough.”

The older brother believed, “I can do enough.”

Both believed belonging had to be earned.

But the Father pursued both.

If you’ve ever felt like you’ve gone too far… or spent your life trying to prove you’re enough… this conversation is for you.

Because the Gospel has never been about the strength of the child.

It’s always been about the heart of the Father.

Welcome to P.I.P.E. Plug Into Positive Energy.

In this episode, we explore one of Jesus’ most well-known parables through a different lens. We talk about shame, performance, striving, grace, and the realization that both sons misunderstood what it meant to belong.

The younger brother believed, “I can never be enough.”

The older brother believed, “I can do enough.”

Both believed belonging had to be earned.

But the Father pursued both.

If you’ve ever felt like you’ve gone too far… or spent your life trying to prove you’re enough… this conversation is for you.

Because the Gospel has never been about the strength of the child.

It’s always been about the heart of the Father.

Welcome to P.I.P.E. Plug Into Positive Energy.

Broken trust doesn’t just affect the way we see other people.

Sometimes it changes the way we see ourselves.

After experiencing betrayal, disappointment, or deep hurt, it can become difficult to trust anyone—including God, and even your own judgment.

In this heartfelt episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares her personal journey of learning to trust again after years of pain. She opens up about how fear caused her to question herself, how she slowly rebuilt her relationship with God, and how discovering her identity in Christ changed the way she viewed herself forever.

Ann reminds us that trust isn’t rebuilt overnight. It grows one prayer, one step of obedience, and one act of surrender at a time.

If you’ve ever struggled to trust after heartbreak, abuse, betrayal, or disappointment, this conversation will encourage you to keep moving forward.

In this episode you’ll discover:

• Why broken trust often causes us to doubt ourselves. • How to begin trusting God when life doesn’t make sense. • The difference between God’s peace and fear. • How to recognize healthy relationships through character and the fruit they produce. • Why boundaries protect trust instead of preventing it. • How believing what God says about you changes everything.

One of the greatest lessons Ann learned was this:

“I began believing what God said about me instead of believing what others—and even I—had spoken over myself.”

No matter what you’ve been through, your past doesn’t get the final word.

God is still restoring your confidence.

God is still rebuilding your faith.

And God is still writing your story.

Thank you for listening to P.I.P.E. Podcast.

Because what you’re connected to will either build your life or break it.

Choose faith. Choose wisdom. Choose peace. Choose trust.

And most importantly…

Plug Into Positive Energy.

What if the story you’ve believed about God isn’t the story He has been trying to tell you all along?

For years, I believed God’s love depended on my performance. I quietly carried the fear that one mistake could cost me everything—that belonging had to be earned, grace had limits, and if I failed badly enough, I would no longer be welcome.

I didn’t realize that the story I believed about God had become the story I believed about myself.

In this deeply personal episode of the P.I.P.E. Podcast, I share how fear quietly shaped my faith, how perfectionism became my pursuit of belonging, and how rediscovering the heart of Jesus transformed the way I see God, myself, and every relationship in my life.

This isn’t a conversation about religion or debate.

It’s a conversation about grace.

If you’ve ever felt like you had to earn God’s love, questioned whether you were still worthy after failure, or struggled to believe that you truly belong, I hope this episode reminds you of the God who runs toward broken people—not away from them.

Maybe it’s time to ask a different question.

Who introduced you to the God you’ve been carrying… and is that really the God you find when you read the words of Jesus?

Thank you for listening, sharing, and growing with me each week.

This is P.I.P.E. — Plug Into Positive Energy.

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There are some wounds that never receive an apology.

Some people never acknowledge the pain they caused. They never accept responsibility. They simply move on, while we are left carrying the weight of what happened.

In this deeply personal episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares her journey through childhood sexual abuse, betrayal, depression, and the long road toward forgiveness. She opens up about the pain of waiting for an apology that never came, the anger she carried for years, and the moment she realized she could no longer allow her past to define her future.

Ann gently reminds us that forgiveness is not pretending it didn’t happen. It isn’t forgetting. It isn’t excusing the hurt or allowing someone back into your life without boundaries.

Forgiveness is choosing freedom.

Through Scripture, personal testimony, and honest reflection, Ann shares how God met her in the darkest moments of her life and slowly transformed bitterness into peace, fear into faith, and brokenness into healing.

If you’ve ever wondered…

• How do I forgive someone who isn’t sorry? • Can I forgive and still have boundaries? • Will the pain ever stop? • Is healing really possible?

…this episode is for you.

Key Takeaways

• Forgiveness is about your freedom, not their approval. • You don’t need an apology to begin healing. • Boundaries and forgiveness can exist together. • Healing is a process, not a single moment. • Sometimes the first person you need to forgive is yourself. • The little girl inside of you still deserves to be loved, protected, and rescued.

No matter what you’ve been through, your story isn’t over.

Freedom is possible.

Healing is possible.

And God is still writing your story.

Thank you for listening to P.I.P.E. Podcast.

Because what you’re connected to will either build your life or break it.

Choose faith. Choose freedom. Choose healing. Choose forgiveness.

And most importantly…

Plug Into Positive Energy.

Maybe I Was Never the Problem

What if the story you’ve believed about yourself isn’t actually true?

For years, I believed my biggest struggle was rejection. Every disagreement felt like abandonment. Every misunderstanding felt like proof that I was the problem.

But this week, one ordinary moment on a golf course led me to a realization that changed everything.

I wasn’t responding to the present.

I was responding to a story I’d been carrying since childhood.

In this deeply personal episode, I share how constantly moving as a pastor’s daughter, learning that conflict often ended in goodbye, and years of unhealthy relationship patterns shaped the way I viewed myself. Together, we’ll explore the difference between misunderstanding and rejection, why our nervous system clings to familiar stories, and how healing often begins by choosing a different response instead of believing an old lie.

This isn’t a conversation about becoming perfect.

It’s about becoming aware.

It’s about learning that conflict doesn’t have to end in goodbye.

It’s about discovering that maybe… you were never the problem.

If you’ve ever struggled with rejection, people-pleasing, emotional triggers, or believing you’re “too much,” I hope this conversation reminds you that your story isn’t finished—and it doesn’t have to stay the same.

Thank you for sitting with me today.

Our restoration begins here.

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Sometimes it looks like settling.

Sometimes it looks like staying where it’s familiar because you’re afraid of what’s on the other side.

In this deeply personal episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares the story of how fear quietly shaped many of her life’s decisions—and how God patiently transformed that fear into faith.

Ann opens up about the fear of being alone, the fear of not being loved, the heartbreaking loss of her mother, and the season that left her questioning God’s plan. Through grief, disappointment, and surrender, she discovered that trusting God doesn’t mean you’ll always understand His timing—it means believing He is faithful even when you cannot see the outcome.

She also shares the unexpected revival service that became a turning point in her life and how one act of obedience began changing her heart, strengthening her faith, and teaching her to trust God more than her fears.

If you’ve ever struggled with fear, grief, waiting, or letting go of control, this episode is a reminder that God is still working—even when the process feels slow.

Key Takeaways:

• Fear doesn’t have to make your decisions. • Faith grows one step of obedience at a time. • God’s plans are often bigger than our understanding. • Peace comes when we stop trying to control everything and start trusting Him. • Day by day, your faith can become stronger than your fear.

No matter what you’re facing today, don’t give up.

Trust in the Lord.

There is nothing too hard for God.

Thank you for listening to P.I.P.E. Podcast.

Because what you’re connected to will either build your life or break it.

Choose faith. Choose hope. Choose obedience.

And most importantly…

Plug Into Positive Energy.

Sometimes it’s carried through the things we never talk about.

The secrets.

The silence.

The shame.

The things we convince ourselves we’ll take to the grave.

In this deeply personal episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Kezia reflects on a week that forced her to see a pattern she couldn’t ignore. Through conversations with her children, reflections on her own life, and the stories that have shaped the women in her family, she began to recognize how pain can quietly travel across generations—not always through the same circumstances, but through the same messages.

Messages about worth.

Messages about love.

Messages about shame.

Messages that survive because nobody feels safe enough to tell the truth.

Through stories of motherhood, healing, relationships, and faith, Kezia explores the freedom that comes when the truth is finally spoken and the burden of carrying it alone is finally laid down.

Because maybe the secret was never the burden.

Maybe carrying it alone was.

If you’ve ever struggled with shame, felt misunderstood, carried pain in silence, or wondered why certain patterns continue to repeat through generations, this conversation is for you.

Healing begins when truth becomes safer than silence.

P.I.P.E. — Plug Into Positive Energy.

Peace isn’t something you find when life becomes perfect.

Peace is something you choose to protect.

In this episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares what she’s learned about protecting her peace while navigating healing, relationships, personal growth, and everyday challenges.

Through honest reflection and practical wisdom, Ann discusses how worry, people-pleasing, negative self-talk, unforgiveness, toxic relationships, and fear can quietly steal our peace. She also shares the habits that have helped her protect it: setting healthy boundaries, letting go of what she cannot control, choosing faith over fear, practicing gratitude, and staying connected to positive energy.

Ann opens up about learning to love difficult people without sacrificing her well-being, why boundaries are not punishment, and how protecting your peace is not selfish—it’s necessary.

If you’ve been feeling overwhelmed, exhausted, anxious, or stretched too thin, this episode is a reminder that you don’t have to carry everything at once.

Take a breath.

Give yourself grace.

Focus on the next small step.

And remember, you’ve survived difficult days before, and you’ll get through this one too.

Key Takeaways:

• Protecting your peace is not selfish. • A boundary is not punishment. It’s a way of protecting your well-being. • You can love people without allowing them to control your emotions or drain your energy. • Not everything deserves your attention, your reaction, or your peace. • What you focus on will eventually shape your thoughts, emotions, and actions.

Thank you for listening to P.I.P.E. Podcast.

Because what you’re connected to will either build your life or break it.

Choose faith. Choose gratitude. Choose healing. Choose peace.

And most importantly…

Plug Into Positive Energy.

Not all at once, but slowly over time. It teaches us to hesitate before we hope, protect ourselves from excitement, and prepare for things to go wrong before they ever do. What starts as a way to avoid pain can eventually become a way of living.

In this deeply personal episode, Kezia shares her journey through disappointment, unanswered questions, motherhood, divorce, IVF uncertainty, healing, and faith. Through stories of loss, restoration, and unexpected lessons, she explores how disappointment can train our eyes to focus on what is missing instead of what God has already placed in our hands.

Together, we’ll talk about: • Why disappointment makes us afraid to hope again • The difference between protection and trust • Learning to release control when life feels uncertain • Parenting through heartbreak and disappointment • The identity crisis that often follows difficult life transitions • Peter’s failures, restoration, and redemption • Whether Jesus experienced disappointment • Keeping our eyes on Christ in the middle of life’s storms • How to move from fear back to faith • Learning to expect God again

One of the most powerful questions in this episode is this:

What have you stopped expecting God to do?

Not because He can’t. Not because He won’t. But because disappointment convinced you to stop believing He would.

Maybe healing isn’t learning how to avoid disappointment.

Maybe healing is learning how to hope again anyway.

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Healing changes you.

And sometimes that’s exactly what makes people uncomfortable.

In this episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares one of the hardest lessons she’s learned on her healing journey: you cannot keep everyone happy and heal at the same time.

Through personal reflection and hard-earned wisdom, Ann opens up about learning to love and respect herself, setting healthy boundaries, letting go of guilt, and navigating relationships that changed as she grew.

She discusses the loneliness that can come with healing, why not everyone celebrates your growth, and how she learned to stop participating in family drama, gossip, and unhealthy patterns that no longer served her.

Ann also shares how Plug Into Positive Energy became more than a slogan—it became a daily practice of choosing faith, peace, understanding, and personal responsibility over conflict, people-pleasing, and fear.

If you’ve ever felt guilty for changing, struggled with boundaries, or worried that growth might cost you relationships, this episode is for you.

Remember:

Not every battle needs your participation.

Hurt people hurt people.

But healed people help heal people.

Stay on your healing journey.

It is worth it.

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Because what you’re connected to will either build your life or break it.

Choose faith. Choose peace. Choose healing. Choose growth. And most importantly, Plug Into Positive Energy.

Through letter-writing, honest self-reflection, and time away from the noise of everyday life, she began uncovering the identities, labels, and survival strategies she had carried for years. What started as a retreat became a journey back to the version of herself that existed before fear, rejection, disappointment, and survival taught her to hide.

Kezia shares the childhood vow that shaped many of her relationships, the realization that safety had become more important than connection, and how the masks we wear to survive can eventually keep us from fully living.

This episode is not about becoming someone new.

It’s about remembering who you were before the pain.

Before the labels.

Before the fear.

Before you learned to hide.

If you’ve ever felt disconnected from yourself, struggled with people-pleasing, carried identities that never belonged to you, or wondered who you are underneath all the layers of survival, this conversation is for you.

Because healing may not be about becoming someone else.

It may be about coming home to who you were in the beginning.

P.I.P.E. — Plug Into Positive Energy.

There comes a moment when you realize you can no longer keep living the way you have been.

In this episode, Ann shares the turning point that changed her life forever. After years of struggling with health challenges, depression, negative thinking, and the weight of past wounds, she made a decision: she would stop giving up on herself.

Ann opens up about her journey from surviving to healing, losing over 30 pounds, overcoming physical limitations, rebuilding her confidence, and learning to see herself through God’s eyes instead of the opinions of others.

She shares the powerful moment that made her realize she was worth saving, the question from God that changed her perspective forever, and how choosing to Plug Into Positive Energy helped transform her life from the inside out.

If you’ve ever felt stuck, hopeless, overlooked, or wondered if it’s too late to change, this episode is for you.

Your story isn’t over.

Your healing matters.

And the best chapters may still be ahead.

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Remember: What you’re connected to will either build your life or break it.

Choose healing. Choose faith. Choose growth. Choose to Plug Into Positive Energy.

In this episode of the P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares an honest conversation about the generational patterns she inherited, the lessons she carried into adulthood, and the behaviors she unknowingly passed down to her own children.

Raised to stay quiet, obey without question, and push through pain without showing it, Ann reflects on how those beliefs shaped her relationships, her parenting, and her understanding of what strength really means.

With humility and honesty, she explores the difference between surviving and healing, the importance of accountability, and the freedom that comes from choosing a different path.

This episode is for anyone who has looked back at their life and realized that some of the things they carried were never theirs to keep.

Because healing isn’t just about changing your own story. It’s about changing what gets passed down to the next generation.

Plug into positive energy. What you’re connected to will either build your life or break it.

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From childhood trauma and losing her voice… to healing, faith, identity, and learning how to finally choose herself, this episode is an honest conversation about removing the mask so many people wear just to make it through life.

Sometimes survival becomes so normal, we forget we were created for more than just getting by.

This episode is for anyone who has ever felt disconnected from themselves, exhausted from carrying pain silently, or afraid to face the truth underneath the mask.

Healing is uncomfortable. Growth is painful. But freedom is possible.

You are not too broken to heal. You are not too far gone to rediscover yourself.

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But eventually, I realized the mask I wore to survive was also keeping me from fully being myself.

In this episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, I share the emotional journey of reconnecting with who I was underneath survival mode — and what healing looked like once I stopped pretending I was okay.

If you’ve ever felt disconnected from yourself while carrying pain quietly, this conversation is for you.

🎙️ Now streaming on P.I.P.E. Podcast with Ann Mayfield.

“The Version of Me That Stayed Quiet” explores the emotional exhaustion of trying to survive while silently falling apart — from disappearing from relationships to struggling with peace, rest, and identity after deep personal loss.

This episode is for anyone who has ever said “I’m fine” while carrying pain nobody else could see.

Topics:

• Shame & emotional hiding

• Anxiety & survival mode

• Divorce & identity loss

• Accountability & healing

• Nervous system exhaustion

• Faith, grace, and restoration

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P.I.P.E. — Plug Into Positive Energy — is a podcast about restoration, resilience, faith, relationships, motherhood, grief, survival, and the process of rebuilding your life when things fall apart.

Hosted through Crowns Restored, the podcast creates space for honest conversations that are raw, thoughtful, and deeply human. Some episodes are personal reflections, while others feature conversations and stories from people who have walked through hardship and found purpose on the other side.

Ann Mayfield will also be featured throughout the podcast, sharing pieces of her powerful life story, wisdom from her journey as a mother and minister, and conversations centered around healing, identity, and hope.

This isn’t about pretending life is perfect.

It’s about telling the truth about where you’ve been… and believing restoration is still possible.

New episodes available on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and everywhere podcasts are streamed.

It is honest, imperfect, and real.

A conversation about restoration, grief, starting over, and choosing to plug into what gives life.

Full Episodes Coming Soon